Fath

2006-02-27T02:47:00.000-08:00

oh gosh, i do miss them so much! i miss OG. i miss cam-raiding with them. i miss skipping lectures with them. i miss having lunch with them. i miss all those og jokes we had. i miss them all. they have made a great stay in sr. trust me. esp, these 2 pretty lass here. latifah and letitia (=

and so, FINAL DESTINATION 3 is gruesome! my goodness. i swear, i'll be good this year and the next year and the year after next gosh.

that's bout it. take care pple (=

loves, fat
*u are what i want (=

2006-02-26T03:01:00.000-08:00

hello everyone (=

my ideal guy (= :
1) he must be oh-so loving. eg. telling me im pretty even when i know im so ugly(not true though.haha)
2) he must love whinings( i do whine alot esp during the monthly pain visits) and make sure my whinings are music to his ears (=
3) he must love having to pluck his ear after 11pm; it's talking time (=
4) his ears must not be plucked with earpiece with blasting music when im out with him.(oh boy, ill make sure ill grab it and keep it in my bag and you know forgetful people, yeah so ill be keeping it for the rest of the week. sweet)
5) be sure to be fit because i love to play catching when im so so so pissed.
6) must always prepare a tissue pack with him because i do cry unexpectedly or else, your shirt will be my most loved tissue (=
7) im always screwing my life so be sure to be involved in my already- screwed up life.
8) and that guy must love to eat because on every date if i miss my meal, i'll crank and crank and crank.
9) say that im gorgeous every one minute (= (nothing much to ask for right)
10) say that u love me in every of the messages that uve sent (=

that's bout it. actually there's more larr but, we ll end it of here first haha. im sure that someone is already biting his nails wondering if he has reached all these expectations. haha sweet, u did expectedly haha.

* i didnt have a pocket/bag with me today. and my aunt gave me 15 bucks and i kept it in my bra haha. sounds great huh!

loves, fat
* i hope god hear my cries. insyallah

2006-02-25T00:52:00.000-08:00

hello everyone (=

u guys heard the news about the contact lenses's solution issue i suppose. im sure it affects majority of the youths in spore. there was once i got this eye infection on my left eye. god, it got so bad that i was almost referred to an eye specialist. ok, i was partly(wait, i was to be blamed) to be blamed for it larr because i didnt wash my contact lenses for a week(it was one of stressful weeks in my life that i slept with it) and seriously despite reminders by my dear friends, i still couldnt careless bout it. tsk, stubborn it is. it started with a small red dot(a mosquito bite look alike) and it was very itchy and of course, i scratched larr. and when i woke up the next day, it got WORST. BIGGER AND UGLY. and even WORST THE NEXT DAY AND THE NEXT DAY AFTER NEXT! but still, i went to school because i used to hate missing lessons(haha not anymore larr) and i got death stares and sympathetic replies and of course, people laughing at me! and i told them, if u laugh at me again, i swear i'll pray that u'll get one soon! (= bliss.

it got so bad that i didnt go to school for more than 3 days! i couldnt even open my left eye because the infection was on my eyelid, some how parasiting with its big ball of pus(just imagine). alhamdulillah, it got better until, the virus spread through my body. it did larr. it got on to right eye, my right middle finger and (disclosed area.lol) yeah, it's ugly ok. and it still has it mark there! urgh.

lesson to be learn: wash your contact lenses EVERY NIGHT! never sleep with it. i admit that i do sometimes, so kick the bad habit like u kick the hottest guy in the world knowing that u deserve a much better GUY (= ok, that was crap. hahah

i went to melawat orang meninggal(a wake). i was frigging shagged and tired larr. luckily there was trish to accompany me. i slept at 5 am and woke up at 7am. i received a call from my dad that cik lina's mum passed away in the morning and so he said, get dress. i was like WHAT?! and so, i did bath, pray and get dress. and when i went down, my whole family was still in their sleeping clothes. im like WHAT! U GUYS MAKE ME WAKE UP SO EARLY AND THERE U PPLE NOT READY! so, i undress and put on my bathrobe and sleep till 10 am. (= but, i was still very very very sleepy.

sometimes, i feel like slaughtering my dick-head bro really. he threw his tantrum at each of us larr. im so pissed because i didnt eat for breakfast and lunch. so, i told my dad let's go and eat he said NO, he has planned. dick head, that's what u are. URGH! but, im happy now because i've eaten. was a lil cranky just now and i cranked it on fai(sorry dude). haha

loves, fat
*i wonder if they re coming =(

2006-02-24T02:44:00.000-08:00

it's you that drive me to that dance floor,
i was drunk,
drunk with your charm,
oh baby u get me on a high.

baby all i ask is more,
more of what you've got,
u poison me,
with that sting of love.

u keep me dancing,
in that closed restaurant,
all couples looking at us,
envying every moves we make.

u get to your knees,
and held your hand,
oh would u be mine,
are the words that u utter.

baby baby,
how could i ever say no,
for u keep me dancing,
till the night drowns.

i was drunk,
drunk with your charm,
that very charm,
u emitted that very night.

loves, fat
*i was bored. haha

2006-02-23T15:49:00.000-08:00

let me swirl in this pool of emotions,
noone to save me,
let it suck me in,
and so, i'll be free from reality.

yes, im just sick of living sometimes because i've got nothing great to anticiapte. And,i do anticipate for something that should never appear. it sucks hell time. boo. is life just made unfair or what? once i had a chat with my cousin, Afiq, we talked about life and i realised that life is very unfair.(i'll keep our conversation to ourselves) and how should we be treated this way? urgh. i've reached a point of life whereby today is just another day for me to live, to ponder how pathetic i am, to lay a red a carpet for my once in a life GREAT fortune to come(because, i rarely get what i want in life.urgh) but then again, waiting, waiting, and waiting is what im doing now. so nothing OoOoohhheeed about my life.

they re not considering my decision. all i've got to say is that, im supposed to lead my life but, my life was arranged in a way that i was being pushed too hard. i hate to look back and regret. i would rather look afar and plan. plan plan plan and insyallah whatever i've planned will be what i've planned it to be. nvm then, since they re happy that way, let it be then. i'll just have to bring myself together and follow. i hate it yet i've got to do it.

i wanna share with you some stuffs bout a friend of mine and her bf. it's really hurtful, if u ever gotta asked me bout it. really. this couple lets named them the great and the good, they re so happy with each other. they need each other everyday. they want each other to be happy. they want the best for each other. they re what i called the heavens of love. but of course, in every sane relationship, couples do quarrel right. even the slightest bit of a push could trigger a quarrel that may/may not prolonged. oh well, it depends though. if they re in a good terms, they re as sweet as that cherry from my fairytale tree. but when they re quarreling, they re as bitter as that of the most concentrated acid in the world. really. but sadly, what the girl so called her friends aren't at all suportive about her relationship. whenever she quarrels with him, they tell her to break apart. it hurts to hear this though. because for god's sake they re madly in love. even the highest tempeature that ever existed could never break that crystal lattice that they held for each other. NEVER. and they said all those mean/hurtful stuffs bout the guy. seriously, the girl hates to hear this because all she ever wanted was friends that advice her and be happy for her. that's all. because what they ever see in that guy is its the surface of the relationship. it's unfair to actually judge something just by the quarrels the couples had. im sure the guy would be torned when he hears this. when someone's in love, all they ever wanted is the people around her to feel the feel she's having for the guy, that's love.

yupp, that's bout my friend. i hope she's doing just great there. maybe her friends should be happy for her instead of saying negative stuffs about her relationship. because even how hurtful u define love, u can never deny that it's the most beautiful thing in the world. (=

and guess what, im lazing around at home when im supposed to be in school. i woke up late larr. hoho horrible huh? VERY HORRIBLE. tralalalala

ok, let me list you 17 reasons why it's great to be a girl:
1) we actually believe some problems in this world can be solved by chocolate- it's true (=
2) long live women! according to paper published in a Harvard Unversity Gazette,"the average life expectancy at birth is about 79 years for women and about 72 years for men.(in developed countries)- love us (=
3) we have the innate ability to assess a person just by looking at their shoes.
4) we can hug our friend(not anywhere near a football pitch) and she wont look at us weird.
5) we're always right even we're not!-i cant dent this lol
6) one word- make up(someone doesnt like it though. lol)
7) another two words- JOHNNY DEPP OR BRAD PITT
8)we're in great company with such truly inspirational figure such as mother teresa, aung sang suu kyi, and theresa chan(starring in eric khoo's be iwth me)
9) we know what we've got and we sure know to work it (=
10) we never have issues with the remote control.
11) being able to distinguish between i amouse and modem doesnt usually give us an ego trip.
12) we're still in contact with our tuckshop partner from primary school
13) we can cry at moveies without having to pretend we've got a chronic sinus problem.
14) beer doesnt constitute a food group for us- healthy it is (=
15) we get experience one of life's greatest miracles- childbirth. lol the pain u mean? haha
16) no fashion faux pas we make could ever rival the speedo. haha ok, i get this took me quite a moment.
17)we get to look forward to some really great magazines every month, such as seventeen! rock on girls (=

i got this from the seventeen magazine. and imma really bored. toodles

loves, fat

2006-02-23T09:56:00.001-08:00

life is full of shit. really having to put yourself together and decide on something IT'S STH I CAN NEVER DO! EVER. it's my life that i've screwed but trust me a queue of loved pple are also affected by my screwed up life. really didnt mean to but, it happened. nvm all that, LET'S LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST YEAH!

im bored. but im frigging lazy to blog up my life. and i did write an entry but my laptop auto shut down. it needs some hands-away from me (=

loves, fat
*fai u're having the exact same blogskin as me. lol

2006-02-19T04:48:00.000-08:00

im just missing something in life right now. OWW, i figured haha. i had a movie date yesterday. should i say IT'S MARVELLOUS?? haha we went to watch PINK PANTHER AT PLAZA SINGAPURA(our favourite haunt.lols) omg, shall i declare my love for OLD HEROES like steve martin? hot aint he? come on check out robert deniro, richard gere and george clooney. I DO ADORE THEM! but of course, my brad pitt and many more. I HAVE LOTS TO ADMIRE. that explains why i never get bored over one guy because i have lots to admire(*exclusively for hollywood hunks only) so dont worry aite! haha

steve martin was pathetically amusing! and we(us) started some drama. shant elaborate haha!

hey, i miss having mac's breakfast with him. those long day out together. sigh, it will come to an end though. DAMN THE SCHOOL!

loves, fat

2006-02-16T21:10:00.000-08:00

ooooo la-la-la, that's my bitch (=

life has been really puffy and blurry.

i live everyday in anxiety

loves, fat

2006-02-16T11:18:00.000-08:00

OH HELLO, im so bored at this hour! IM ON THE PHONE WITH ATHIRAH! haha and oww anyway, my valentine was really sweet. my boyfriend and I lunched at RITZ CARLTON (= SPLENDID! and later on, we took a walk and we caught up with each other life(i dont know if it sounds right, because i see him practically EVERYDAY, yippee) lols. he got me this beautiful long blouse (= i got him nothing special- a long sleeve shirt and the weird thing is that, WE DIDNT KNOW WE GOT EACH OTHER STH NEW TO WEAR! haha he looks hot in it because the next day i made wear it on a date (= haha see, we dont get bored with each other company. ok, im being so lame! but true, I LOVE HIM A LOT! oh boy, i need that HUG (=, HUGS

loves, fat

2006-02-15T05:26:00.000-08:00

YES, EVERYDAY IS A VALENTINE DAY FOR US. just you and me (=

loves, fat

2006-02-13T03:38:00.000-08:00

he has his reasons, im hanging there (= thanks to you

loves , fat

2006-02-09T03:12:00.000-08:00

FRIDAY; DOOM DAY =(

i went out with fai after school today. i laughed a lot i guess. prolly, i bottled up my fear of facing destiny and so, I LAUGHED A LOT!

ok, a chilli was stuck btw my teeth. fai being the ever-greatest-caring bf of all ancient-modern time, wanted to take it away for me. BUT, i told him i didnt brush my teeth for 2 days and HE QUICKLY changed his mind of doing so. just imagine larr, it's only i didnt brush me teeth for 2 days WHAT IF my face is distorted or sth? FAIZAL IS SO GONNA LEAVE ME haha and yeah, then i told him no la i was just kidding and i said, eh my mum didnt cook la. HAHA, and both of us started laughing and EVENTUALLY HE DID THE JOB. thank you very much!

best wishes to all ya (=

im gonna get 13! hahahahahahhahahahahhaha(and i cant stop lying to myself)

loves, fat

2006-02-06T01:36:00.000-08:00

omg, i WASNT late today (= special thanks to my dad for banging the door as if it's gonna break anytime sooner. and yes, I NEED TO GET MY SHAMPOO SOOn, or some people would just cant stand on fathiah's un-disastrous, shiny-silky and un-frizzy hair(u should who you are larr. hoho)

so, nothing outrageous happened in school. AND SCHOOL IS A BORE. and i cant believe what i did today, I LISTENED ATTENTIVELY IN ALL LECTURES SO MUCH SO THAT I KNOW WHAT THE HELL THE TEACHERS WERE ONCE CRAPPING ABOUT. it was a crappy shitty once, but not anymore. surprisingly, i did my tutorials, chemistry only larr (= and, I WAS REPRIMANDED BY MY MATH TUTOR FOR NOT DOING MY TUTORIAL which i did actually, it's just that i lent it to letitia and she has forgotten to return it and to make matter worst, SHE WITHDREW. haha but darling, if u happen to read this, BE SURE I COULDNT CARE A SHIT OF WHAT HE WAS TALKING ABOUT. haha. we had math quiz and i only know how to do some of it (at least better than not knowing all) (=

and school ended at 5 pm. I ALMOST SCREWED HER(the principal for being so merciless towards S10)

ok, we had JAE talk in the morning. it was pretty scary i have to admit. RESULTS, RESULTS, RESULTS shouting at me. and I KNOW I SCREWD MY Os. I HAVE THAT FEELING I'LL BE DISAPPOINTED. and, i just hope all these will turn its back and blossom goods behind bads. haha, i was crapping. nvm all that, i just hope to ace. I PRAYED ALL OF YOU OUT THERE WILL ACE TOO (=

loves, fat *im SICK NOW =(

2006-02-05T00:13:00.000-08:00

and so i had chingay yesterday AND I VOWED NOT TO VOLUNTEER MYSELF AS THE STREET ROCKER ANYMORE(lord knows why). that's bout it im so down now. more details on faizal's blog.

how to access?

click three, and click on faizal. there you go (=

btw, i HATE chingay because, my phone rolled on orchard road. it has painful cracks on it right now and i cant seem to subisde the pain THAT I HAVE IN MYSELF AND MY PHONE. urgh

loves ,fat

2006-02-01T01:05:00.000-08:00

I WOKE UP AT 7.15 today! apparently, i was REALLY late. so, since im late already, WHY NOT BE LATER?!! and so, i took my own sweet time to iron my uniform and pack my bag. and i think god heard my cry during my shower.. i said OMG AM I GONNA BE LATE?? apparently, i thought. so, when i ran down(well, at least show ur sense of urgency haha) my dad was still at home. AND SO, he sent me to school and on my way to school, he gave a disciplinary talk! and the last time i had was... YESTERDAY! and i just went ok, I GOT IT!! bye ayah! haha.

i gave my ez-link card and the security gave me a student smart pass! and, my malay teacher thought it was something GOOD! until i said, cikgu im late larr thats why they gave me this card. haha. and i could almost sleep in class. I SLEPT AT 4am and im an official zombie that shouldnt be disturb and SHOULD be going around with a sign board saying- BEWARE SHE ll EAT. ok, crap. i didnt listen in physics lab lesson. CLUELESS, oh yes was the word ive been digging from the day i stepped into physics class. haha. i slept in class and woke up took out my storybook and read. AND MY TEACHER WASNT MAD/BOTHERED or whatsoever haha. I LOVE PHYSICS! and, H1 lecture is canceled because the teachers are going for lunch reunion! THANK GOD, or i'll be figuring how to keep myself awake in geo class. and, i met with ath and we roamed around WITHOUT my ez-link card =( i hate to fork out coins when i have a card! urgh and ive learnt not to bring big notes(as in 50 bucks) with you. BREAK IT DOWN TO 5 of ten dollars. firstly, THE EZ-LINK CARD MACHINE SIMPLY WONT ACCEPT IT. stupid or what? secondly, i'll give the aunty that owns the shop at kovan bus stop some troubles. i wanted to buy the magazine,OK!, but i cant because she didnt have any change to THAT BIG NOTE. sigh.

yesterday, i went to watch fun with dick and jane with faizal. he said he was used to my laughter but the people around us werent. SO, HE COVERED MY MOUTH IN THE HOPE OF LOWERING THE PITCH OF MY LAUGHTER (= thank you very much. BUT, whocares! YPU PAID FOR THE SEAT AND THE SHOW AND SO, LAUGHED YOUR ASS OUT! yeah, i had fun yesterday! SADLY, there wasnt any catching =( lol

loves, fat

2006-01-29T06:12:00.000-08:00

I WANNA BE LIKE PARIS HILTON or MAYBE PARIS's FRIEND (=
can? ok, im reading her book, Confession of an Heiress PARIS HILTON. ok, it's basically about her life and I LOVE HER life. ok, WHO DOESNT? it's just filled with FUN, PARTIES, GOSSIPS, PHOTO SHOOTS and FASHION. and pls, she's adorable SIMPLY JUST ADORABLE. i love the book first, it's from my best friend, ATHIRAH.(wait, make that second). second, THE BOOK IS SO COLOURFUL! and i love colours. I WANNA BE AN HEIRESS. I'LL MAKE AN ENTRANCE. I'LL FLY IN PRIVATE OR FIRST-CLASS(get me my brad pitt first) and yes, I LEARNT TO LOVE MYSELF (= ok, since when have i dont? so, im nearing to the stage of an heiress with TUDUNG haha. my fashion icon; HEJAB IRAN DOLLIES hahahahahhahaha!

and IVE GOT TO SAY PLS DO/MUST READ PS: I LOVE YOU. I LOVE THE BOOK PERSONALLY (= and all i did at home was mendak-ing(lazing around issit fai? i guess so) and yeah that's bout it.

with loves,
the heiress

2006-01-27T07:03:00.000-08:00

hey, had Chinese New Year celebration today at school. It was one of the DRIEST concert ive ever been too =( true. UNTIL, those lil kiddos from Teachers' Association care centre came! THEY'RE SO ADORABLE pls. they could shake their butts while i cant =( hahaha so, it was GILLY AND LET last day today. we took photos and I HUGGED LET and you should know how much im gonna miss you (= pls, pls remember me. that one hot gorgeous chick, fathiah (= thank you very much!

WE HAD SECONDARY REUNION DINNER AT SAKURA (= omg, YOU GUYS DO NOT KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS YOU GUY!!! ok, can u imagine the amount of rainfall i miss that one week?? oh ya, THAT'S HOW MUCH I MISS YOU GUYS. OMG, MORE REUNION PLS! and nan, u look so different!!! like shah rukh khan sei haha! BRYAN never changes larr. still that one i left behind at the brottles last year hahah kidding (=

later on, i met fai. OMG, I MISS HIM TOO. so, i miss you practically EVEN more than i miss my fellow friends hahaha. we were clueless on where to have our lunch. AND, we ended up playing catching. MORE DETAILS AT FAIZAL's blog(it's in my linkies) yay, check it out!! i was hiding and i kept changing places!!! and now, IM STARVING!!!

and, im going to malaysia tmr. MALAYSIA AGAIN! when can it be PARIS or ITALY or KOREA?? hmmph! im going there for a bbq session with my paternal side (= i hope i'll enjoy it (=

IM SORRY TOO =(

loves, fat

2006-01-26T00:24:00.000-08:00

im feeling down the whole day. prolly, the conversation i had with someone the night before. i can be so high of myself and i can be so down to the core. see, IM PLUNGED INTO THE EXTREMES. i don't like it. and when i told this to my friends, they ll go, OK, thats so not me. yeah, maybe thats my unveiled weakness until i discovered it now. i mean, we do have weaknesses dont we?I wanted to know the truth but as much i hate to know the truth. I CAN BE SO WEIRD, picturing scenes during boring lectures and started to have tears welled up in my eyes. and so, i started talking to my friend beside me during lectures but i'll get reprimanded by the teacher. so, I SULKED THE WHOLE OF LECTURE(ok, not sulk just wells, OBEY THE TEACHER). i tried my best and i cant figure why why why do i feel that, that person is somehow damning my life. URGH. i bet none of you reading this would ever understand what im blabbering about. DON'T BOTHER ANYWAY.

so, i only enjoyed and LOVED chemistry lectures and tutorials. haha, i do participate in class for that subject (= haha. I LOVE CHEMISTRY. ok, wHAt-vEEEEEEEr

I dwell within me,

hating the truth,

but as much as i hate,

want to know,

but, it's so hard to put me,

to the state that i'll regain my sanity

loves, fat

2006-01-25T05:36:00.000-08:00

hello, it's been two days since i blogged. oh wells, nothing much happened actually. IT'S JUST THAT I SKIPPED SCHOOL ON TUES BECAUSE I DIDNT COMPLETE MY MATH TUTORIAL AND IM SO SCARED OF BEING REPRIMANDED. haha and so, i didnt go to school but headed to cp and study day with fai. ok, he stared at me haha and poked me. he said he was bored, so i told him PLAY with me. ok, he did and i was doing my work. WRONG THING TO SAY. lols. and bought this book, PS: i love you. really a nice book to read (= read it before but i cant quite remember the story so, i bought it haha and IM BROKE NOW.

and, school is such a bore. I REALLY I HOPE I CAN GET INTO SOME OTHER JCs like raffles junior college or Meredian junior college. hahaha (= fai told me, he doesnt suit SRjc uniform and Mjc uniform looks good on him. haha. quite true la since when u go with dead leaves brown?? haha, u look so much better in water blue. haha and MOST OF OG FRIENDS have sent in the withdrawal form. IM SO GONNA MISS YOU GUYS. RAH.

PS: i think i have a cute physics teacher hahaha YAY! but, he's too old to be admired but not too old to be adored. ok, crap haha.

ANYWAYS, I MISS MY LIFE. I MISS YOU.(yes, you ) (=

ATH! I WANT CONFESSION OF HEIRESS NOW. thanks baby, for gettting it as my bdae gift haha. love ya oh-so much

loves, fat

2006-01-23T03:00:00.000-08:00

OH WELLS, I RAN TO SCHOOL TODAY. I SLEPT LATE TO COMPLETE MY HOMEWORK WHICH IS STILL ALOT LARR. AND THANK GOD, I WAS RIGHT ON TIME (= By then, i was so tired and too lazy to even go for classes. I HAVE NoT BEEN SLEEPING WELL. BOOOO =(

so, the day started off with General Paper(GP). it was ok and thank god i did my research. so, answered a few qns correctly. haha good, or good? Miss wong is so funny pls. she told us to master the art of sleepig i was like Oww ok haha.

today wasnt that really SUPER. hmmph and now, i miss orientation =( so something happened to me, maybe not happened it's more like someone said to me.

ok, ive got this guy in my class named BAZUKA(pseudo name). he's all the guy that i call A SUPER COMPLETE NERD, not criticising but just stating the fact. so, being the friendly me, i said hi to him when i was walking out of the lecture theatre and so this happened:

fathiah: hey BAZUKA!

bazuka: tsk(a sound made by someone when he/she sounds irritated) and gave me a look.

fathiah: eh, why u always tsk me huh?

bazuka: because, i heard rumours saying that u like me.......

fathiah: WAS IN UTTER SHOCKED/HORROR/DISGUSTMENT(is there such a word?), NO, i dont like you. i mean i dont like u. as in, more that friends.

bazuka: i hope so

fathiah:(no one in the right state of mind would ever fall for u) HE'S WEIRD AND DAMN EGO PLS(said it to myself larr)

bazuka: i dont like rumours to spread around.

after that, i went out of the room AND FIND ALL MY FRIENDS AND TOLD THEM MY ENCOUNTER. they said, "omg, ure rejected..." im like no come on he's weird!

and yeah, so thats what happened like what the hell larr.... ok, gtg and do my tutorials. byebye

loves, fat

2006-01-22T04:24:00.000-08:00

I WAS FEELING HAPPY UNTIL i read on about something. urgh, SHOULDNT HAVE READ. im feeling sick now. oh anyway, CALL ME BEAUTY QUEEN OF PROCRASTINATION PLS because ive been TRYING to do my assigment and ive only touched bits of it here and there when there is like TONS more to go. so, the statement "one more to go" will hardly come by?? haha. i felt worried sick because ive slacked so much and so, i called kai qing and told her im feeling sick. she said IM CRAZY. i replied why? she said first 3 months is A PLAY-go-HOME thing and so, she made me feel better but WORST NOW. haha

i went out with fai yesterday. we went to town AGAIN. then, we headed to the teachers' seminar and he was forced to accompany me. haha AND HE WAS SO PAISEH when he remembered he might be the only guy. SO LAME huh? i know and to make him feel better i had to spot for guys and said, "see, ure not alone" haha. i didnt think he really paid much attention to the talk. he told me to check how many slides were there i was like WHAT THE... bad right, i know. and when the presentation was short, he said that the person is a GOOD PRESENTER. horrible, i know.

later on, we went back to town. ok, singapore is boring tell me where else would u go?? TOWN. BORING. ok, FAI CRAPPED ALOT YESTERDAY. I MEANT ALOT and he dragged me to his kinda shop. it was so cool pls, AND IT DIDNT appear to me as a shop. i know im a kuku haha. the shop name is SURRENDER. and faizal loves those kinda design. not so bad larr I LOVE THE BLACK ONE but he insisted on the white. the white wasnt that bad tho. and we looked around for my new pad bag(fot the monthly visit, yeah i make its arrival very grand ok) and i found this cute one and bought it. and we headed home by bus(faizal insisted it because he wanna spend more time with me, i know haha)

and, I WENT BACK TO SCH ON FRI JUST TO SEE JIA HUI BECAUSE I MISS HER SO MUCH (= haha happy? lols

tomorrow will be a schooling day and i dont feel like going after knowing that ill be separated with my OG. sad larr =(

ok, take care people. may god be with you.

loves, fat

2006-01-19T21:01:00.000-08:00

MY ALLOWANCE HAS BEEN USED UP FOR FOOD AND TUTORIAL NOTES, LIKE WHAT THE HELL?!! let me rephrase it, 75% on tutorial notes and 20% on food(i almost died of starvation) and 5% on enjoyment(and i have pepole telling me to enjoy life when i cant even increase the percentage of enjoyment to even 6%) ok, IM BROKE and I NEED MONEY TO BUY MANY MORE NOTES AND FOOD. yes, i do eat alot that explains my growing firgure. haha WAIT IM STILL THAT SLIM SEXY ONE OK (=

anyway,enough of bickering IM GONNA COLLECT MY EAGLES AWARD TODAY. YAY!!!!!! and today was an oh-so-so day. NO excitement. AND I DID MALAY HW DURING PHYSICS LECTURE. hey, i kinda like using the word lecture instead of lesson, it's more profound and COOL in a way. hahaha SO, ILL KILL PPLE WHO LOVE LECTURE HAHA.

ok, gtg now take care.

2006-01-18T22:33:00.000-08:00

hey, i catched PRIDE AND PREJUDICE yesterday with fai. it was sad/romantic movie. Fai said he really enjoyed the movie. haha and i told him IT'S NO WONDER U TOOK PURE LIT AS ONE OF UR SUBJECTS. (= i had fun and well, i told him stuffs that bother me so much and well, felt much better and lighter now because someone took some of my grieves with him (=, thank you.

and i didnt go to sch today. IT WAS WELL-PLANNED THOUGH. i even made breakfast-date with fai haha. BAD huh? i know )= i wouldnt want to sit at physics lecture first thing in the morning PLUS i did not do GP hw. i was too tired to even flip the paper and take the pen to write MY NAME. so, FORGET IT. skip sch. haha.

and it feels so great to know that ure not alone (=

*hey ive made a photo album for myself check out my hot pics. hahahaha. how to access?

click two. and click on gorgeous pics. THANK YOU VERY MUCH (=

I KNOW GOD IS VERY FORGIVING BUT I PROMISE HIM I WONT TAKE HIM FOR GRANTED. insyallah (=

loves, fat

2006-01-17T04:11:00.000-08:00

I WASNT LATE TODAY(ok, almost late larr, BUT STILL RIGHT ON TIME) (: yay. ok, i skipped geo lecture. apparently, i hate to be alone in an oh-so big lecture theatre :/(kai qing didnt come to sch today due to some mental problems. I DO WANT HER TO COME AND ACCOMPANY ME, but her sis called me early in the morning with 2 reasons: to wake me up(she was doing it on the behalf of kai qing. and to tell me how moronic kai qing looked just now. lol) and I DIDNT HAVE MY BREAKFAST TODAY. i skipped supper yesterday so pls, imagine how i survive-cum-suffer during GP lecture :/

PE lesson was fun. WE DANCED HIP HOP. all i know is that, SRJCian DO NOT, i REPEAT DO NOT know how to move their body up and down. So me and lat, were like "omg, look at us! so dead" and our moves were so robotic when it was supposed to be HIPPED! and i was called out to dance on stage when i know i cant dance for nuts. haha. let and me were just like making a fool out of ourselves upstage (: haha. and JASON FROM ATHENS DANCED REAL GOOD. right guys? im sure larr.

we did our chinese new year card. IT LOOKS SO GREAT. with the hardwork of lat, let, fat(me), nic, jon and others(i cant really quite recall if they actully helped out), of course IT TURNED OUT GREAT (: *cheers.

before math lecture, i rushed to first love(thank god it's just outside LT5) to get myself teriyaki burger to gorge. and then i rushed for math lecture. AND THE OH-So-VERY sweet lat saved a seat for me, N40(the seat number.haha) and i ate there secretly. BAD I KNOW but my stomach was really growling. and i sat behind this maris stella guy and he helped me to keep the look out of teachers and HE SAID IM A PRO AT DOING THIS. hey, why am i always complimented with all the supposedly wrong doings? hmmph. hahaha but still, IM COMPLIMENTED. come on, think it positively. IM INFAMOUS. STILL FAMOUS. haha ok, crap.

and i still ATE KFC WITH LAT AFTER SCH. see, im fattening (:

TMR IS DELPHI(GAMMA) GAY DAY (: and the guys had to carry tote bags/girlish sling bags lol. im bringing roxy sling bag for nicholas and a ripcurl sling bag for sam. lol. cool, i know! haha so, ill update u guys on how gay they can creep up to. haha

loves, fat

* yay, i got my class combi (:

2006-01-16T03:07:00.000-08:00

I WAS LATE FOR SCHOOL TODAY :/ but, i didnt at all panic or whatever(that shows signs of being a slacker which I DO NOT WANT TO BE).

when i got to the school gate, i was stopped my the councilors and they asked me to give them my ez-link card. and of course, i gave. they scanned it and i held my hand to take it back(gestures of courtesy, i didnt snatch) BUT NO, they said collect it from the general office at 6pm. I WAS LIKE WHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTT and one of the teacher called me(obviously, i was the only jc1 student late today) and talked to me. DISCIPLINARY TALK. i never had one in my life. OMG, IM SO TURNING BAD/REBELLIOUS. i DONT WANT!!

today's lectures were total boring! WE ENDED UP creating msn messenger 1.0(a chat room using a piece of paper, super uber lagging. i mean what do u expect, messenger 1.0.lol) esp, math. we do not have the graphic calculator and there he still went on babbling on how to press the calculator when only o.1% of the school's jc1 students' population holding the calculator! and the best thing was that, I TOUCHED THE CALCULATOR AND TAMPER WITH THE OH-SO COLOURFUL BUTTONS (: haha.

YES, we(my friends) were caught because we re late for the forum talk which is BORING! and we re reprimanded of course :/ i hate it larr. yeah, but well, we ended not listening to the forum but taking snaps of ourselves. OH MY GOD

kai qing felt disappointed because isa(her idol) didnt have a good stamina. haha. sad huh? and she cant live without her concelor(i dunno how to spell it. sorry) such a bimbotic answer! lol

loves, fat

2006-01-14T21:52:00.000-08:00

hey, i went town-crazy yesterday with fai. to sum up, well it's fun durh( i mean im the fun). we went to eat and we ate so much that MAN, IM FATTER NOW :/ and and i SAW TAUFIK BATISAH. so excited haha. i used to be a fan of his(fai, read that USED TO BE), not anymore simply because he doesnt carry the charisma which brad pitt does (: so well, URE OUT OF MY LIST DUDE. but still, i joined the minahs in spore going huha hahaha! BECAUSE I LOVE MY VOICE SO MUCH AND I WANT THEM TO BACK OFF BECAUSE THEIR SHRILLS ARE SO LOW CLASS. and THEY ARE KNOWN FOR FASHION DISASTROUS (: what matches hot pink, green and black. OMG, see horrible.

we watched the dark. it was a great movie larr. with many UNEXPECTED BOOMS AND BASHES which scared me that i jumped(didnt exactly jumped but jerk a lil). yeah thats about it larr. and i was oogling over fai's once sharped jaw cut. lol ONCE lol. he has been eating alot lately and he said going out with me makes him fat. im not offended or anything but i felt like punching his stomach because he's indirectly saying that im FAT and THAT IM EATING A LOT :/ sad man.

then, i needed the toilet. so we made our way to paragon because the toilet there is so SUPER UBER! and we actually walked from PS to Paragon. and IM SO HAVING A HIGH TIDE BUT I NEED THAT TOILET. and when i let out, PRAISE THE LORD. lol then, i felt like eating again. SO, WE HEADED TO BUGIS (:

i told fai, "hey, check your bills" and we did. and when the message came, both of us didnt want to open it. BUT, i did and i screamed. later on, fai did and he SHRILLED! and both of us ate chicken rice oh so sadly. haha! and so, we went home after that. I HAD FUN (: BLISS sweetie.

loves, fat

2006-01-12T02:55:00.000-08:00

hey, life has been a mundane; going to sch, then eat out, then go home and this actually goes on like everyday. WHAT A LIFE :( and ath has found a job. IM SO HAPPY FOR HER EVEN SHE DID CANCEL OUR DATE HAHA. it's alright sweetie. and im so not in the mood to do anything now. and IVE GOT CHEM AND PHYSICS HW lols. but im done with chem so im down with physics. and then, ill just read some stuffs from fan fiction(my cousin, khairiah has greatly influenced me larr but, i still love her) ok, let me share with you a poem(or so i guess) i read from fan fiction (: it's really pretty:

You are love is like the wind, I cant see it, but I can feel it
Sometimes its so soft; I hardly know its there,
And at other times it comes in gales,
Its like the wind, it will always be there.
Youre gone, sometimes I feel so alone,
Till I feel the soft wind blow,
Youre here, with me, all around,
Watching me from far above the clouds
And every time I feel alone or scared,
Youre like the wind, you’re always there.
Just because I cant see you, doesnt mean youre gone,
Youre love is like the wind, it will go on and on,
You taught me more than any one else could,
You changed me for the better good,
You were always there and you always cared,
If only you could always be there.
I could think of fate as depressing and cruel,
It took you from me, at just 18,
You had so many more things to do,
So many more things to see,
But I look at the time we had with joy,
Because I might never have seen you at all,
We may never have talked, or kissed and hugged,
We may never have had those few precious months,
Fate brought us together, even if it were for the smallest of times,
Fate taught me all that matters, is whos by your side.
And I know you love me with all your heart, I feel you around me,
From the blowing wind to the warming sun,
Ill miss you every day,
And every minute were apart,
But every time I feel lonely, and every time Im sad,
Ill always remember:
Youre love is like the wind, I cant see it, but I can feel it.

beautiful? yeah it is.

loves, fat

2006-01-09T06:17:00.000-08:00

LECTURE WAS BORING /: lol. not that boring actually because ive been trained to entertain myself so not too bad though (: so, i was fasting today. I MADE LATIFAH FAST WITH ME (: oh, being a ultra-sweet girl, yes, she fast with me. BUT THE WORST THING WAS THAT, I DID NOT WAKE UP FOR SAHUR(eat in the morning to fill your stomach so that your stomach can last till break of dawn) OBVIOUSLY, U GUYS CAN LABEL ME A STRONG, VERSATILE GIRL (: thank you! and my ever-sweetest letitia bought me a packet of pocky(choco) for me to eat when i break my fast (: so sweet. imma so TOUCHED! and i accompanied her to have her lunch and she said she wont be eating my all-time favourite roti john SRJC because she didnt want to tempt me. ALAMAk , SO SWEET (: haha

during lunch break, WE PLAYED UNO. cool, or cool?

after sch, i went to cp to meet ath because i need to borrow her uniform. see, how pathetic i am. then, we went crazy in the toilet /: TOILET PPLE. SHANT DISCLOSE lalalalalalalalalalala!

on sat, ive got chingay training. prolly, ill be trained how to be THE BEST MOTIVATOR OF ALL TIMES (: lalalalalalalalala. ok, thats all for now. im sad because ive got to cancel my date with gf ): fai is working now. he told me and reminded me of the VIEWS. ok, i got it. tell me once baby and i can cry hahahaha!!!!

loves, fat

2006-01-08T05:05:00.000-08:00

IM BLOGGING AGAIN (:

yesterday was so fun pls. i went out with my gf, athirah. OMG, i miss her so much. I MEAN IVE NOT SEEN HER LIKE WHAT!!! 7215371377632 years larr. see how long?? and and, SHE LOOKS SO PRETTY WITH HER NEW HAIRDO (: i love it girl (:

we actually went crazy pls. like laughed so loudly(ok, wait thats normal for any humans like us). we tried mrs fields's cookie. too sweeet like me. and we chilled(ok so not me using this word) out at starbucks. catching up those times (: BLISS. and i never want that day to end pls (: SO, NEXT WEEK WE LL BE WATCHING HINDUISTAN MOVIE OVER AT MY PLACE AND WE PLAN TO GO BREEKS FOR LATE LUNCH??? yes, i cant wait larr. IT'S TENTATIVE larr. and pls tell me it is normal for girls to go around taking pictures of themselves, because yes, it is our favourite damn disease (:

pics:

ok, we loook goooooooooooooooood. see, ath looks so pretty (:

i shop there every month. MY KIND OF FASHION (: lols

I CAN FEEL FATS ACCUMULATING IN MY STOMACH /: BUT I DONT CARE (:

MORE FATS lalalalalala

and we have a word or two for starbucks, thanks (:

loves, fat

2006-01-08T02:43:00.000-08:00

hello there, ive not been updating my blog. ive been very busy with sch. YES, SCHOOL. omg, i think u guys will be jealous of how great my OG is larr. WE CAN SHOUT LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS. WE CAN LAUGH WORST THAN A HYENA. WE CAN BE EXTREMELY LAME THAT WE NEED A WHEEL CHAIR(so lame huh? but, all of us found it funny. lol) so, DELPHIANS RAWK YOUR SOCKS (: love us.

HEY THE CAMPFIRE WAS AWESOME I WAS MADE TO PERFORM. BRILMARVO(brilliant, marvellous, bravo). yeah, wait can i say, the delphians put up a WONDERFUL FANTASTIC performance (: i enjoyed my time during the orientation with great pple(shall give those people some credits):

Justin and michelle (delphi gamma's OGL) they re wonderful people (:

the great girls:Letitia, latifah, jie ming, wan li, wan rong, angeline, zhen yun, maya (:

the hunks(not actually, the girls were way better than them pls like CHEERING):Nicholas, shawn, JJ, hidayat, jeremy, Jon, kang wei, justin, sam, samuel,gillbert, ying kai

*credits for me because i remembered each and all of them (: cheers

here are the pics:

MY GROUP FLAG( nice huh? lols. i cant actually quite figure what it's written on it lol)

Letitia and me (:

apart of us (:

*ill update u guys on the grp photo (: YAY

loves, fat

2006-01-04T04:40:00.000-08:00

hello people, IM A SRJCian now. lols. it was fun fun fun fun fun on both days even though the first day was a real drag i still did enjoy myself larr. i went crazy with the girls in my group. OMG, WE RE LIKE THE NOISIEST PLS (: WE LOVE!!!

i think i talk, SHOUT, laugh too much. but who cares larr. WE RE SUPPOSED TO HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!!!!! and the guys in my group are like so dead, literally. lols the girls are rising BE WARNED GUYS! hahaha but they re really funny people pls lol.

so on the second day, it was ALL FUN GAMES DAY. from the morning to the end. lols. im such a horrible dancer larr but nevertheless i still screamed the OOOHHHH AHHHHHH even though i never get the steps lols. and i wasnt alone la many others too were like WALAO WHY SO FAST!!! EH I DUNNO SEI!!! lols

and jie ming was like "aku tak minah sia" "aku babi terbang" and ifah was like entertaining her and i was so bored too that i added stuffs(lame ones) too. lols. and i was made the PL(peer leader) with nicholas(he is so funny la blur blur). we were talking just now then suddenly he uttered out, " im a gay" i was like WHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTT THEEEEEEEEEEE HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. and he got so scared and keep telling me he was straight hahaha!!! i laughed so hard larr.

AND YES I HAD FUN SO MUCH FUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNN and and tmr will be a drag pls. it ll be talks after talks until 1 30. IM SO GONNA BRING PILLOW AND SLEEP!!!!!!!!

KAI QING U LOOK SO PRETTY I LOVE (: and fai accompanied me for late lunch. swwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeettttttttt right??? lols

loves, fat

2005-12-30T05:34:00.000-08:00

oh hello, i woke up so early in the morning, like 6.30 am (: u know why? im broke and i need some money to survive in this ever-charge world and so i begged my dad for money. even visiting toilets i need to fork out 20 cents and pls, they are still money and if i ever pile those 20 cents together i might be getting TEN BUCKS (: so u see...

i went for red cross training. i was a helper see, im so good lols. no la, i was practically fooling around and i was late. training starts at 9 and i came like what 11? yes, im a princess (: before heading to sch, i headed to sham's place to collect my christmas gift. since im so shagged and tired after like 5 hrs of sleep(it is not enough), i slacked at her hse; watched tv, crapped, see sham eat(im on diet. yeah right) and sitting around. see, i told u im a pig with a tiara on my head (:

after training, bryan, ath, jia hui and me went to have our lunch at banquet. BRYAN ATE ALOT; 2 boxes of octopus balls and 1 plate of chicken rice. HE SAID HE CAN EVEN EAT A COW (: lols. then later on, the king(faizal) came and we made a move to east coast for couple blading session lols (:

he didnt want to blade at first but i gave the very look that will just make him say YES LET'S BLADE(see, he's charmed). we even started this dealing game; i brought UNO and he said if i lose, we wont blade and if he wins we wont blade.but, unfortunately, we didnt know how to play the harry potter version of UNO so, noone won... and we blade (: haha. I FELL ONCE AND FAIZAL FELL ONCE TOOO. i fell on my butt(screw that girl) and faizal hugged the tree thinking it was me (: and we got crazy on the shuttle bus (: right fai? shall i blog? lols. we played the water and damn, he wet me and we sat on the rocky. it was so peaceful pls listening to the crashing of waves but, was interrupted by fai's voice begging me to go home):

and we got home (: safe and sound (: he loves me and i love him (:

i know im adorable (: oww yeah, we shared that towel cute not?

loves, fat

2005-12-29T03:45:00.000-08:00

guess what, I SULKED MYSELF at home from 1 onwards (: watching movies after movies (: hey i wont be having this kinda pleasure after next week larr. now, i drag for sch to start(ok, screw me for applying the first 3 month) or else, ill be drowned with all the princessy pleasures, luxurious(sleeping and pigging) and going outs. NOW WHAAAAAAAAT ):

so, i called faizal up to have breakfast with me. ok, it took so long for us to decide on a place because i wanted it at kovan but he wanted it at cp. obviously, he wants to spend more time with me (: i know. lols. BUT NO, he said it is so much easier to travel to cp from his place so yeah, since he has been a good boy this month(yes, this month only) i agreed on cp and i travelled to his place meaning, I WOKE UP MUCH EARLIER AND I RESTED MUCH LESSER AND I WALKED AN EXTRA DISTANCE AND I USED UP MUCH MORE ENERGY THAN HE DID. so, I AM THE BETTER ONE DOWN HERE (: but but, he paid back all these on the journey back larr because the 112 bus stops over at my place first then his. so, ure not so bad la (: good sei :)

then, we had our breakfast at mac's. he got my 'normal' order correct. HAIL. and we roamed around cp.. or wait did we? i cant remember but i know i bully him alot larr. bad sei fathiah. hahaha but what he loves being touched mah so i touched him lor i mean beat him lor still touch mah(so, i was talking to him like this with all the mahs and lors just now at mac and he called me a damn chink) and i learn it from him (:

then, we headed to kovan get plastic cover for fattah because i promise him to wrap his books sweet? sweet.period. actually, he said i can play the most wanted game only if i help him to wrap all his books. so in desperate measures, i agreed larr (: bad right? having all these compromisation(no such word) what the.... but as a beyond words to describe sister i will do it man (:

and we went to video ezy to rent cds. YAY! i rented madagascar(i love this show oh so much), monster-in-law and charlie and the chocolate factory(can i have that golden ticket for myself too?) and i watched it like consecutively because i was plain bored larr at home. at home do what? cook huh? lols.

and we headed home. some one whispered this to me "can we go out and play like kiddies later?" i replied, " yeah sure (:" hahahahahahahahah u should know the line better lols. :) ok, thats my life for today :)

loves, fat

2005-12-28T05:03:00.000-08:00

oh hello, im sure u pple have been waiting (: thats good

today i went to get my OH-WAITED phone (: im so happy at last im not phone-less. my dad bought me nokia 6680 and i DO NOT KNOW HOW TO USE SUCH A PHONE LA. and all those programmes that are installed in the phone are so blur-ish to me. im not a gadget person u see. so yeah. I AM EXCUSABLE (: so, i called fai and asked him how to use the phone. he tried telling me but i still dont get it maybe it takes time so yeah. no hurry ive got like what 2 years to learn how to use it (: hahaha

then, i met up with fai and we went out (: i think he loves me so much really. like, he allows me to do whatever i want( u know what i mean, like punching him) it is so fun pls. i dont think beating up bf is wrong, SO PEOPLE BEAT THEM UP IT FEELS GOOOOOOOOOOOOD. then, we ate alot today god knows why. because we re hungry like durh (:

question: BFs should know what their GFs mean when they say i want the normal order right?

ans: oh well, it depends. well, ive always ordered 2 piece chicken meal(both chicken wings), ill change the colesaw to mashed potato. so, that one day my bf accidentally forgot my 'normal' order and he said, u think i know everything about you huh? u tell me la sad or not? lols. but, i still ate it la HUNGRY WHAAAAAAT hahaahaha and i still love him even if he says im a leceh(yes, he made it sound like its a noun) (:

so today was fun! and NO BBQ FOR ME? hahahahahaha yeah no ): hahaha

loves, fat

2005-12-27T04:59:00.000-08:00

ive been tagged by the nothing-better-to-do mr hunn(faizal's friend).

5 random facts about me:

i burp everywhere, anywhere and anytime i want :)
i hate to comb my hair
i still suck my finger and smell my pillow(yes, cute not?)
i laugh oh so loudly and never know how to control myself when im so happy and I'LL LAUGH
i love to intrude and read about pple's life(oh man im so good at it larr, right fai?)

5 LUCKY CHOOSED PEOPLE:

i dunno who but i WANT HIM TO DO FAIZAL PLS thank you (:

loves, fat

2005-12-24T22:31:00.000-08:00

First of all i would like to thank all those sweeties/pretties/hotties for wishing HAPPY BDAE. im really touched and may god be with you tooo :) and may you be blessed with prosperity, health and good life in the future :) GOD BLESS YOU :)

and yeah i went out with faizal on my bdae and we got soaked wet under the rain :) oh my goooody god he looks(check out the tenses meaning hes forever hot pls) so hot when he is wet lalalalalalala :) i mean so HOT :) and im DARN HOT TOO :) i enjoyed myself so much that i didnt want to go home but i have too since im still under the guardian of my two lovely parent :) so, my dad bought this coffee log cake from swensen for my bdae(i dont really like it because i dont like coffee cake) but i ate it anyway :) yes, fillial daughter and thats SO me:) and friends wishing me oohhhh i love them all even they are just words but gladly appreciate it :)

so we had a family bbq over at my place yesterday(24/12). it was fun thrilling i mean nothing is more fun than being with your love ones :) so, i did so much cooking and cutting that i called myself the beauty that was killed in vain ok whatever. so, i met fai's friends( danny, farhan j and farhan r) ok, funny people. danny is super hot(im not kidding) farhan j talks alot and i wonder when he would shut up maybe never. farhan r is quiet and reserved probably someone was there too :) but fai told me hes not the quiet type so i figured it correctly(you know what i mean, ok what maybe no lol). and yeah, faizal fell on his butt during skating because i called him(on the phone) im sorry dear :/

then, i pronounced the bbq to begin. so i was the first cook :) then, i got so shagged that resigned hahahahaha :) we took loads of pictures and yeah here are some:

that's me and afiq. hes one true bitch for your info lols :)

beauty at work. and yes, how could THEY??!!!

still at work.

and something from above knock some senses to her two dearies and so they went down to help me out :) thank you

nisah and me. she looks like lucy in narnia and dora in dora the explorer(or so she claimed lols)

hunks in life are enjoying the feast :)

bdae boy and girl and yes, we share the same bdae(22/12) we look so adorable. I KNOW :)

the happy ones :)

act tao(is it spelled that way?)

act cute lols. he made me do it

pretty and hot(thats so natural aint it?)

my gorgeous aunt. she made for us a calender and pasted our childhood pictures :) sweeeeeeeeeeeet

be self-obssessed whenever u can :)

she calls herself siti nurhaliza and yes, she is not ok lols

SQUEEEEEZEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

SQUEEEEEEEEEZEEEEEEE CLOOOOOOOSER

me and khai :) the adorables

my darlings :)

my pretty aunt. i love her cooking :)

look at my cousins. so nuts right yes, i know there is no wonder im like this too lols

see, im so drama. my cousin was just telling me about sth and i go WHHHHHHHAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

lovely :)

my hand print nice?

and my lil handsome young man got me a bracelet with my name on it thank you :) love it

loves, fat

2005-12-21T11:49:00.000-08:00

hey check out my friendster profile :) it is ugly la U KNOW WHY????????? because ath did it for me :) see, she is doing it for me at this very hour love her la.

updating her(ath) current mood:

-complaining like as though her nail has just broke after her french manicure. SO SHE GOES, $#%#^##^#^#^^#*#*&#& :)

-still compalining

-FOREVER COMPLAINING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and im so cool about it :) see, im such a gooooooooooooooooood friend. wait make me the one that is sent from above :) she said im such a friendster idiot because i do not know anything about customising friendster thingy which i do not plan to learn :) oh god i love myself for not knowing actually. you know being an idiot is so cool somtimes. and i mean sometimes it makes u look like a complete bimbo trying so hard(ok not trying) to know something. I MEAN ATH WHAT ARE FRIENDS FOR?!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BDAE TO FATHIAH(thats me) :)

NOTE: PINK/metallic/black MOTORAZR V3 ARE OUT OF STOCK. I MEAN WHAT THE HELL? SO, IM GETTING MYSELF fud2212(a new imroved- technologised-disco-fun-thrilling phone) LIMITED EDITION THERE IS ONLY ONE :) and thats for me THANK YOU! AND IM SO DEPRESSED RIGHT NOW SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

loves, fat

2005-12-20T05:56:00.000-08:00

I LOVE BANANA PLS. MY ALL-TIME FAVOURITE FRUIT :)

loves, fat

2005-12-19T11:26:00.000-08:00

omg. im here to announce that I HAVE JUST WATCHED WET DREAMS (an M-18 movie) lol. i know im not supposed to watch but my ever- loving brother bought the movie through TV demand :) so, we watched it.
the guys in the show were so FOREVER-SICK-SEX -MANIAC! they could be so high when whenever this pretty trainee math teacher showed her body assets(ok, actually she didnt show it but the kids were tooooo horny and go looking at it) and so they got high :/ it is a SUPER HILLARIOUS SEX COMEDY(ok, i sound dumb here, comedy is duper funny. ok nvm) anyway, i was OMG-ing from the starting of the show to the end! i swear! i mean every parts the director never fails to insert some comedy in. lol and the guys ARE SO CUTE PLS. KOREAN GUYS ARE SO HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! even the old math teacher :) highly recommendable to 18 year old kids and above(i know, i shouldnt be watching) :/

do catch it ya :)

loves, fat

2005-12-19T06:58:00.000-08:00

i called fai today in the morning asking him to go out with me :) yes, princess's favour pls and better be granted :) and he said ok lets go(in a very excited tone, ive yet to know why actually maybe im his happy charm hearing my voice just make him happy, see i told u im great) :)

so we met YAY! no one was late FOR THE FIRST TIME :)! he kept coughing i bet it's the 2 weeks-no-fathiah, baby? lol(love sick in other words) :) and so we headed to EAST COAST PARK. it's hot and daRn im HOT TOO! we played the sand like kiddies oh we are! cute ones! and faizal is afraid of water; hyrophobia! lol anyway, i managed to get him soak wet!!!! yay! and we played! and i told him STH THAT I ACTUALLY DIDNT EVEN PLAN TO TELL HIM :/ it was really one big drama going on i mean having me as the person to tell sth oh yeah BIG DRAMA :) but, i felt better :) so much better!

then, we headed to orchard to catch KING KONG. KING KONG IS FAIZAL. yeah they behave similarly like beating ones chest! lol crazy :) and, we went nuts in the cinema like i said FAIZAL URE THE KING KONG LOUDLY AND HE SAID YEAH I KNOW!! and that makes me naomi WATTS! like GREAT :) so fun pls :) and pls if ure not a samsung user MOVE ASIDE BANANA :) lol

and we headed home because ive made plans with my uncle to catch NARNIA SNEAK PREVIEW WITH KHAI, ABG AND TRISH! cool or cool? its so fun pls! the show itself and the theatre IS BIG(great world, should go there more often) and the four of us go OWOOWOWOWOWO! WALAUEHHHHHHHHHHH! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!! drama is us and us is drama(ok, crap) yeah we re the noisy bunch! and once i shouted real loud PLUS i was drinking pls and that werewolf gave me a scare! AND I GOT A FREE BAG! and then, i bought khai her VERY BELATED BDAE GIFT :) she likes it :) YAY! i love today! and i love you and thank you for understanding :)

love, fat(fai didnt want to my hot pic hmmph)

2005-12-16T20:48:00.000-08:00

im so MAD at daddy.PERIOD.
ive made plans with Kai qing to watch the ever-talked-most-about movie, KING KONG
we re planning to watch it TODAY!
but, yesterday he called from office saying that he ll be getting my PINK MOTORAZR V3(lol, not true.making myself happy thats all) today(sat)
so i canceled my date with kaiqing :( sorry dear
and guess so what, i called him today after i woke up from sleep like 10 30 am, HE IS NOW AT IKEA!
and i said ok ill just get ready and all.
i went to check the opening hours of the samsung customer service.

mon to fri: 11 amto 9 pm

sat: 11 am to 12 30 pm?( wait, omg so i can like go!!!!) i mean it cant be opened for only 1hr 30mins WHAAAAAT. lol i do not know. but nvm, hs SHOULD LEARN TO MANAGE TIME :) and should learn not to slam the phone on rage :/ which i did just now. he told me to collect myself on mon. SO YAY! i can go out for once :) pathetic i know but no! i wanna get that PHONE FIRST! now what, he is ALWAYS ruining my plans, my dad i meant. hmmph SO IM PHONE-LESS NOW OR MAYBE FOREVER WHAAAAAAAT THHHHHHHEEEEEE HEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

so, tell me what can i do today? i do not know! IT JUST SUCKS TO BE STUCK AT HOME! and FAIZAL IS ENJOYING HIMSELF AT EAST COAST PRACTISING IN LINE SKATING WITH 2 FARHANS(i tell you its just so hard to have friends of the same name, because we can quarrel over it( me and fai) because i always ask him who is he with? he'll say farhan and ive got to like add on the sentence which one? and well, we wont tell me if i dont ask and when i found out! I'LL BE BLOWING HOT STEAM FROM MY HOT BODY and i love myself)

ok, im so gonna get myself to doing sth BUT NO HOUSEWORK pls. thank you :)

loves, fat(the mother of all princesses) :)

2005-12-16T00:09:00.000-08:00

omg. can u like imagine imma stuck at home.
smirked
someone didnt date me out today. sad sad sad lol more like my dad called just to say DO NOT GO OUT :) he wants me home. meaning he wants me to be safe. he wants me to have a good rest. he wants me to eat more!
oh daddy, ure the one ill love till i die :). i love daddy :)

ok. my parent are happy with the PAE posting. but i just hope that ill do MUCH VERY MARVELLOUS for Os.(pls, pray for me. ive been good this year) or maybe get myself to some GOOD junior colleges like raffles/hwa chong or national :) believe in yourself :)

My Os result will be like:

english: A2

malay: A1(sorry ah fai, too smart la)

emath: A1

amath: A2

physics: B3 (i screwed this shit)

chemistry: A2

combined humanities: A1

So, L1R5: 9 and L1R4: 7

YAY! so, ill do my parent proud. YAY! ive been dying too over the past years :) gees love me :) and when Raffles/hwa chong and any other top notch JC called to take me in, I'LL GALDLY DECLINED :] yay! pls pray for my results will turn the way i want yeah? thanks :)

omg. charlie's angels are so hot pls. i just watched the movie(full throttle) on cinemax just now. i wanna be like them. NO NEED O LEVEL CERT :) so gladly, i just need to learn to kick some ass :) which im so good at. PERIOD.

ok, ive received the MOST EVER shocking news. samsung customer service called me at 1 30pm.

the lady: canispeaktomiss aathiahbteabdultalib?(i went huh? i almost called my mum thought she ordered sth or what)

me: come again(politely pls)

the lady: can i speak to miss fathiah pls?

me: oh ya, she's speaking.

the lady: calling from samsung customer service. (i cant quite recall what she said about my phone because she speak indeciphered eng, not to be mean or what but true but, i heard sth that i never want to hear pls) it will cost $449 for repairing the damage. do u still want to continue the job?

me:(my mouth was practically OPENED WIDE IN SHOCK, plus there is a mirror in front of me) what? $449? urgh, do you mind i call my dad first?

the lady: yea sure. thank you (she is polite but why must she tell me the price, almost strangled her)

i didnt call my dad first. i called fai(no, it just when so naturally that i dialled his number lol). he said cancel it but new phone(seriously, hes good at this) so, i was gleaming because i can get that PINK MOTORAZR V3 :) lol bad right? i know. im phone-less now.SO BORED!

then i called my dad.hes cool about it. cancel it la crazy. i was ok! and i called the the customer service and canceled it. so, i hope to get that bloody HOT phone pls :)

KUNG FU HUSTLE IS SO FUNNY PLS(watching it now) bye :)

loves, fat

2005-12-15T19:04:00.000-08:00

conversation btw fathiah(the hottie) and kai qing(the goddes of bullshit)

fud: which jc?

kai qing: hwa chong lor.. sian la(stop your lei la lor, ok?)

fud: hwa chong? smart sia u with how many points? 20 ah? u seduce the principal huh? stop it ok.

kai qing: which jc?

fud: rjc la scince class what sei i wanted HCJC la hmmph! u jeapardise my admission :/

end of conversation. lol nice? oh yeah esp in the break of dawn we came out with this shit :) we re just full of it im posted to SRJC SCIENCE STREAM together with kai qing and guess what another 3 months with her and maybe forever! MJ baby? lol yeah we will get away from super raffles and we down grade ourselves to raffles only la. HUMBILITY(no such word right?)

Name
FATHIAH BTE ABDUL TALIB (the hottie)
School Posted To
SERANGOON JUNIOR COLLEGE
Course Posted To
SCIENCE / 0710S

omg. they really wrote that ok :) see :) smart not? SUPER RAFFLES CAN :) im proud :) ok, im just making myself happy :) and worth living and craving for :)

someone said ive changed :( very sad. but didnt tell me ive changed to what. but i go figure. sad sad sad :(

loves, fat

2005-12-15T12:22:00.000-08:00

i walked in the snow
hoping and wishing for sth to come
hoping to hear the jingles
oh anyone, can u hear my plea.

i walked in the snow
wishing that u were there
to fill the gaps btw my fingers
oh anyone, will you bring him.

i walked in the snow
more than elated
someone told me, presents are here
i remembered keeping my fingers crossed
oh anyone, grant my wish.

i walked in the snow
staring at the sky
jingles, jingles i hear them now
oh anyone, is santa hear yet?

i walked in the snow
wishing upon a star
"i wanna walk my life with him"
oh anyone, can i?

i walked in the snow
santa came in his sleigh
"santa, can i have him for myself"
santa smiled at me.

i walked in the snow
with him that night
chilly but warmth
quiet but romantic
oh anyone, tell me he's the one.

i danced in the snow
with him in my embrace
we danced like never before
like those in the fairytales
that i longed to feel
oh anyone, pls thank santa for it :)

lol. im no christian or anything. iwas just lifting up the CHRISTMAS SPIRIT :) it seems dead in spore. :) im just helping good or what?? good!

loves,fat

2005-12-15T05:32:00.000-08:00

not your luck?
sad sad sad
he has a blog and i wasnt told. niceee.

loves, fat

2005-12-14T04:05:00.000-08:00

The maths of life

Romance mathematics

smart man+smart woman= romance

smart man+smart woman= affair

dumb man+ smart woman= marriage

dumb man+dumb woman= PREGNANCY (lol. i like these equations) :)

General equation

a woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.

a man never worries about future until he gets a wife :/(that explains my dad's recent behaviour)

cute aint it??? an extract from the NEWPAPER(NET BUZZ) check it out :)

here are more :)

Men and women worlds apart

happiness:

to be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.

to be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and NOT try to understand her AT ALL (the person who wrote this is a woman though, so IT IS RELIABLE. but i felt so belittled :/)

discussion technique:

a woman has the last word in any argument.

anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

CONCLUSION: MEN ARE TROUBLE-STARTERS :) WOMEN ARE PEACE MAKERS :) i love myself now :)

LIFE IS SO GREAT. aint it??? so MEN AND WOMEN ARE WORLDS APART and so NEVER compare a girl and a guy :) simply because girls are better. oh gosh, i sound so sexist lol.

loves, fat

2005-12-13T09:43:00.000-08:00

U PUT 2 GREAT UNCLES TOGETHER, U'LL GET A SOMEONE THAT READS YOUR BLOG(tracking your life.lol) oww, im proud to say i have those uncles!! they read my blog(love me for dedicating a blogspace for you guys(the "makciks" of my life) and they know my friend(you guys know what the heck im talking about) but im honoured pls. do read more often AND TAG BEFORE YOU LEAVE as an acknowledgement of you guys bugging in my life(privately/secretively):)

i went to east coast today :) FUN PLS :) i went with Jia hui. firstly, i woke up late to make the dishes. secondly, jia hui was at SENG KANG at 8. so she reached my place around 10. but sadly, i was still in my bathrobe, unbathe, unsmelly(i bathed the night ok) making the dishes :) pro or what? PRO. while i was bathing, she had a fun time with my older bro. they crapped a lot. i mean call jia hui for assets of sensibilty? oh gosh, dont dream pple. she can babble non-stop bout ang mohs/van/herself. see, thats where i got the influence of obsessivity of one's self :) BLAME HER! she loves cartoon probably the sitting at home all day with no shows to watch made her this! A CARTOON-FREAK. i need to scream at her to get her away from the TV, sofa and my bro.

so, we left at 12 and got up on 55 and im the poor soul carrying all the stuffs. what did jia hui carry? LAYS packet and a bottle of ice lemon tea :( ure a bitch lol. once we re there we ate like pigs! ok maybe she not me :) lol and there was this english woman(of twenties) she took off her bikini top on the beach! WOW for guys erks for girls like me! yes, ure hot but pls body assets keep to yourself. OH GOSH! she did it twice! i saw her BOOPS! i saw! tell me bout it. GUYS WILL GO WOWOWOEEOWOEOWOEOOWOE. girls will go can i have that?? lol! i sun tanned! but i was wearing tudung. I DON KNOW WHAT I SUN TANNED ALSO!!! HMMMPH my facee went all read at the cheeks(more pimples URGH). and i soaked myself in the water! NICE/HEAVENS/LOVES :)

so after the sun tanning session or so we called it lol, we went cycling! we rented the two seater bike! we took so long to get our balance! lol like 15 mins? i laughed so horribly. lol pple looking staring and everything but im still proud of myself because i did balance myself! i was the frontier!!! Jia hui was the back-tier! it was supposed to be the other way round lol. we cycled to the jetty! caught up the times we have missed(which is a lot) it was a TRUE FUN DAY!!!!! i love it :) we saw pple skimming(lol funny i must say, shant blog). then, while jia hui was bathing, i was at the beach. i saw these kids(playful/cute) they asked me to take their pictures. since i have the cam, i took for them la. ok guess what??? on the verge of losing my camera cover, i soaked my phone in to the sea water RAH!!!!! and it went berserk! crazy! went on vibrating and vibrating! lights on(the camera light) RAH! but, i don blame them la(patience is me PPLE) yeah so i headed to PS to get it repaired again! i might have to pay for the damage's cost. motorazr V3 ayah?? lol then, met fai(it has been a long time) then i headed home :) and IVE RECEIVED AN EAGLES AWARD :0 oha lalallalalalalallal

oh yeah jia hui and me went crazy on the way back :) death glares yeah baby?

here are the pics:

best friends hold on forever :) yes, it does :)

i look ultimately odd :/ she rawks :)

i sun tanned like that lol PATHETIC :/

i look odd again obnoxious too. nono, thats not me. cute can!

her name is maizurah. i dunno her but im friendly enough to be her friend :)

i live by this word: FAITH :)

oh yes, us! :)

loves,fat

2005-12-12T03:37:00.000-08:00

i blogged again perharps im too bored and there is nothing to do at home except for cottoning my ears so that my mum's bickerings wont get through my ears lol. good? so my all-time crazy/whacky/fun/adorable cousin came today :), khairiah her name. she screamed so loud that i bet my ear drums were about to burst trust me :) so, today we got so bored that i decided to go blading around my estate and she ll walk and i told her to get the fats out of her :) yes, im very concern about her. what can i say my best cousin lol. unfortunately, my roller blades turned out bad! it broke! i wanna cry so add on to my bdae/christmas list a pair of rollerblades for me pls! after much commotion(khai complaint that shes tired/cant be bothered to burn the fats/she already jogged in the morning), we planned on walking around the estate :) it was fun, i tell you. she(khai) go around saying hi to ppl that i claimed strangers dear? yea strangers. so here was the first encounter:

khai: good evening sir! have a nice day

the stranger: (he lifted his sunglasses(he wears the clip on type)) do i know you?

khai: no im just saying HI! (lol i laughed out loud almost rolled which i did later on)

the second was a blada-hot-jawdropping-guy chick! he was on the bike. i couldnt careless trust me but my dear khai went on and said WASSUP! i was waiting for the guy to point out his middle finger as a symbol of ignorance but no HE SMILED OH- SO HOTLY! khai was over the moon! she was like that guy was truly hot. i was awed tho i mean i waiting for him to point his middle finger and have a good laugh BUT NO he smiled! khai went on flattering bout it. WHAT-E-VER! lol

so, she carried on saying hi, have a good day and have a good dinner at everyone/every cars that passes by! some replied with a smile, some raised their hands others just look at us insanely hmmph! whenever we got that kinda replies, we just smirked at them and said BITCH/UNGRATEFUL(i mean we took the trouble to walk and make pple's day!!!) rah! and we snapped some pics! our usual stuffs even our grandpa got bored over it! we raided his phone!!! lol love us.adore us.befriend us :)

that is my all-time loved pillow! khairiah hates the smell but i love it! it has my saliva on it :) lol

she(khai) claimed she looks like fleur. read that she claimed :/

im helping her in promoting herself. because i look gooder/better than her ill just pose beside her to make her look good :) i am good

dont we look good?? befriend us(ok, i sound like an animal) lol

she is blessed tonight with my kiss :)

i think my tongue looks long lol! beat me pple. i thin u guys better dont or ull be demoralised lol.

she looked like this when that hOTTIE SMILED AT HER lol whaTeVEr!

ok. im like crapping alot(no, actually i enjoy doing this) :) im going to the beach with jia hui dear tmr!! shes coming early to make dishes(she cant go without food) lol! she even asks mummy to make sambal telur thats her favourite :)

loves, fat

2005-12-11T22:57:00.000-08:00

OH GOSH i still havent got anything for my dear athirah. seriously, i do not know what she wants even though we re bestfriends for 4 years lol. i still do not know what to get for you. easy, ill go by your hse kiss you a million times :) i bet thats what u want lol :) love me GF.

im so bored. boredom has attacked me. my mum is nagging. my stomach is growling. and im waiting for any kind souls to come over my place and make me happy. but sadly noone :(. i wanna watch NARNIA anyone?? malaysian kids have been telling me(persistently that i do not know how to get them to shut up lol) that the movie is SUPER DUPER REAL GOOD! so i vowed to catch it when i returned from my trip :) and i asked my all-time favourite cousin to watch with me and she said she ll treat me YAY! cool or cool? decide yourself lol!! and she is here NOW!! beside me shouting/shrieking at her high pitch in my EARS :) but i love her :) shes gonna make my day!!!! trust me :) lol and imma such a liar :)

im so bored. i wanna shop till i drop. i wanna get levis top i saw it and i fell in love(ill bribe daddy for 500 bucks :) lol bad i know). i wanna get that levis jeans that sham has it. i wanna get that adidas sneakers(it is so nice pls) i wanna get nike tops( but it is just so hard to go looking around for the long sleeves ones.hmmph) i wanna that adidas sweater(the white one) i wanna get that NIKE SLING(ive been blogging this for how many times?) i wanna get sth from PRINTS. i wanna get a new bed mattress(happy friends one) yes, i wanna them all :) daddy pls pls pls pls but, he hates to go shopping with me everyone in my family knows why.. good that u guys know so get me a credit card with a thousand bucks in it and ill go shopping the whole day. ill shop for christmas gifts too for my friends :) see im such a shopaholic and thats in every girl's blood :) i love talking things relating to blood like, inherit my blood and bla bla it is just so cool. lol

and i want a PINK MOTORAZR V3 can? lol, imma so greedy :) proud i am :)

loves, fat

2005-12-11T21:15:00.000-08:00

my trip to KL has been a blissful one so much fun and craziness :)

anisah and me. aint she cute. she loves candy!!! :)

im carrying her(anisah). she was wrapped in a her bathrobe. (the pink one in case u guys cant see it)

she is crazy/wild/funny. oh yeah she is :)

she can eat that all by herself trust me and she did :) haha. there were 2 colours for this christmas-candy-lollipop. so, she was stuck to choose which one to buy because i said she could only buy one. it took her so long to choose. she drove me nuts because i had to wait(i hate to wait). btw, she was holding two of the lollipops trying to choose which one i got so impatient that i pulled one of them and it broke!!!! so we gotta buy two of them! and she was so happy hmmph! she said it was my fault lol.

she is so adorable right?? oh gosh. she only know two words at the moment, ouch and wow! so said so cutely/adorably RAH!!! you guys should see her laugh :) adorable pls.

adlina thats her name. a baby girl to die for lol.

my bro and her. so cute pls :)

she again :)

we went to sunway lagoon. FUN and so fun!!!

the flume ride. i tell u it's so freaky in there. it's pitch dark and suddenly the water come eating u alive(read my previous post) :)

thats my younger bro and dad. my mum didnt get to capture me, my older bro and amir. :(

the hunks in my life lol.

we re being punished for being to cute/whacky/pretty/handsome/ and everything nice RAH :) adore us :)

u could sleep on amir so comfy/so cushion(a wallking one) lol and talking one haha :)

i wanna play with the kids :) and i wanna be a kid again can?? santa??

uncle isk gave me this for my bdae :) i love it oh so much YAY!!

a symbol of propaganda: he gave this too and told me to drink only pepsi/7-up and ice lemon tea(lipton) screw u la! lol

thats all peeps.
loves,fat-hope u guys have fun like i do :)

paris is me/mine :)

2005-12-10T05:23:00.000-08:00

im still at malaysia(bukit jelutong), my uncle's place.
i went to sunway lagoon YAY! it was so fun pls TOTAL MADNESS :)

at the wet park:i played like i never played before i screamed like never screamed before. and i seriously need to have long legs so i can paddle on water while resting on the float which is super uber big. and then can i sleep on the float with rest assured peace :). so there were ppl surfing there! wow! the english ppl wow! super hot! guys+girls and i asked my dad if i can wear that bikini and he said over my dead/murdered body. lol! but i still can buy it and wear under a all-white shirt and pants and when i soaked myself underwater and get out of water pple can see it!!!! RAH! yeah super cool im gonna try :)

at the dry park: i went on the flume ride with amir(my lil boy) and my bro. ok it was kinda freaky tho. it was pitched black and hell i couldnt see a thing at all trust me NOTHING and the next moment i knew the water came zooming/splashing at me! it was like eating me alive! for god's sake i was wearing jeans, long sleeves and tudung(scarf that malay muslims(women) put on) ans i was drenched wet YUCK yes YUCk! i smell of chlorine( the gas that bleaches red litmus damn litmus paper, chemistry was put to use so not a waste lol). and all i knew was that, the 3 of us screamed so LOUD! haha amir was so cute/adorable/everything that is nice pls :) he loves to get wet! haha esp at the grand canyon river :) he die-die/mati-mati wanted to get splashed haha! i dodged it well(but still, im soaked wet) hmmph!! it was great and i didnt want to get home! :(

and i cant drink coke/sprite/F&N drinks/100 plus says my uncle isk! you know why? he is working under pepsi management so it is un-ethical to drink other products that are not produced by pepsi(sad sad sad). i had lunch earlier on with him today. i ordered sprite and he snapped at me: NO! it's either pepsi or 7 up i was like WHAT!!!! hmmph! poor me yes poor me. and so my dad ordered sugar cane juice(my least liking) because there wasnt any 7-up or pepsi! that's so mean i know! unlce isk mean repeat that a thousand times pls go figure... lol. so as a loyal/truthful/best/super-uber niece i am abiding by the law that i cant drink those mention drinks above haha! but ill still drink in desperation yeah?? :) and he gave me a present. yeah all those disney figurines(i like duh!) but i want UNO!!!!!! i want NIKE sling bag(white one). i want moto Razr V3(pink one. so hot pls). i want more shirt/blouse/jeans/anything i can wear(tudung?lol) santa santa my bdae falls on the 22 of december pls pls pls!!!! fulfil my wishes all of them can?? :)

so the class bbq is postponed thank god or else ill look so shagged and just order ppl to get food for me. oh yeah, full-time princess i know that's what im here for; to be a princess! YAY! i wanna go watch rumors has it anyone??? but pay for me thanks as a bdae treat :) lol.

some pple are just born naive/gullible/imbecile! lol they actually believe im some where at the royals! lol mines resort hotel which is like expensive/high-class and everything!!!! lol but im here at bukit jelutong :) yes proud! lol

loves, fat

A great family makes great love :)

2005-12-04T05:40:00.000-08:00

so, Cik halim(one of my beloved/whacky/nth-better-to-do uncle) called us up and said that he ll be organising a family picnic today(sunday). YAY! but, he called to inform at 12 midnight? oh yes. so, the girls+my elder bro planned to go for cycling while the guys go ahead and play soccer(you ought to see how they play. i mean the older guys(the uncles) they practically was fooling around while the lil boys were energetically playing/skidding/falling). i was known to be one of the "on" spectators having to jeer at every of their actions! i mean they(the older ones) were so happy when they fell or did a heading which i rate pathetic because ive seen lil guys doing far way better than they were *laughs.

cycling was a real fun. it has been a year +++ that ive not been on bikes! so it was kinda an exciting thing to be on it again! YAY! so those who went were: dirah, me, khairiah, abg, izzah and sofi(shes adorable pls). sofi being the youngest had to ride on the two seater bike with my bro. i laughed when i saw how stiff my bro was having to take care of himself and a lil girl. lol anyway, he pulled it thru and did it well(the taking care of sofi).it was tiring but hell fun! at least i had so much fun! izzah was so cute pls! she would get so nervous when shes behind us! so we gave her a head start and NOT FAIR shes always first lol! here are the funny things that happened during cycle:

1)i ramped into the bushes because i was laughing and eating at the same time. cool right? i mean i can multi task(eat cycle and laugh all at one go. power or what?)

2)khairiah dropped her cookie while cycling. seriously, the dumbest thing ever! aint talented at all! she doesnt carry the multi tasking blood in her like i do :) that makes me so special.

3)izzah's bike's chain ran out of the way so she had difficulty cycling!

4)the coke my bro was carrying while cycling just had its way out of the plastic bag. god knows how. and he lost his balance! lol

5)NTH HAPPENED TO DIRAH! RAH!!!!!!!! shes good or what?

after the cycling and soccer game(or so they claimed was one), we headed to the beach and wet ourselves. ok thanks to fadly that im soaked wet! hes screwed! but khairul saved me aww! haha ok, snap out hes my cuz and hes hot la! :) of course inheriting my blood hes sure hot! so yeah we had loads of fun you see :) thats all!

AND I ATE ALOT PPLE! another 1kg was presented to me! and i won the treasure hunt game YAY!!!!! my mum is proud of me :) like whos not? lol

alright till here,

loves,

fat

2005-12-03T02:10:00.000-08:00

i just got back from red cross camp yesterday. it was fun, FuN and FUN! i miss all my dearies so much. RAH! i bet they miss me too :) the camp was literally dead(no noise/no nonsense) but well, after jia hui and i came all the nonsense and noise were produced lol! so fact- they miss my existence maybe a lil of jia hui's haha.

im bored at home! at least, i didnt pig around today. i helped my mum in the kitchen, good or what? then, i went to read harry potter and the half-blood prince.(slow, i know i put it aside the other time because i need to mug for Os). the book is cool! so when i was reading this book at camp, yong xuan and harrinder(my cadets) was like "Hey dumbledore died." or "i read this book many many times" or "snape is the half-blood prince" ok, i know you guys have read the book but dont kill me with the known-facts in the book because I LOVE SUSPENSE(read that ok?) but still i crap some parts with them. and my once ever-sweet/generous brother has been mean to me nowadays! he didnt want me to read his books, WAIT i cant touch them RAH! so, i need to borrow the deception pt, angels and demons and (i cant remember the last one, it is one of dan brown's series) from farhan(faizal's friend) good god, he isnt like my bro! haha so, maybe i wont be that bored afterall. YAY, ok lame.

had bbq cum bdae party at my place on tues. bryan hasnt sent me the photos yet! RAH!!! we sure had loads of fun back then! i was drunk with loads of food not alcohol wierd? certainly. imma so bored let me share with a song:

stick witu by pussycat dolls(they re hot pls. can i have a body like theirs???)

Ohhh.. Oh Oh..
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin' is)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

ok ppl, tell me how to get rid of these pop outs! they re such an incredulous disturbance in any human rights. can u imagine having to click cross and another comes out. do this once and multiple by a thousand..... there u go figure how many times have i been doing this oh ya for a day! so go figure for a year! RAH

yay! im going off to malaysia AGAIN on tues to sat. happy because im getting out of spore. sad because it has always been malaysia for a holiday. cant daddy change?

so thats all. im gonna read again! and make myself hermoine granger RAH!

2005-11-27T07:41:00.000-08:00

im seriously slacking like noone's ass business.
tell me pple, staying at home yeah doing anything not study.lol
I HAVE FRIENDS THAT HAVE BOUGHT A LEVEL TEN YEAR'S SERIES(ok.seriously nuts/screw-loose/outtamind/nth-to-do pple).
how crazy can they get? A level is like 2 years time.. 365x2=___ days.. gazillion mins/seconds. come on, breathe and have fun! my god i almost choked on my food when wende told me joel has started on C-maths.(oh wells, Joel do read CALCULUS BOOK once at physics class apparently, he found Mr selva(physics psycho teacher) boring and started exploring on how did the mathematicians deduced to such formulae. ok, he's a great a math tutor--patient, and he ll explain so detailedly that i gave him a ok-i-have -enough-information-joel(lol. no offence ok ure still great/nuts and all).

pple can be in love with math huh? i mean so in love haha. so, i miss school actually. NOT the sch(the sch sucks) but the ppl. im like the noisy/drama/someone that doesnt know what is a fullstop even after so many years of education. so thats me. but hey, i bet my class missed me la. (i dont assume.lol just stating the facts RAH). even how noisy i am, i still ask questions(constructive ones ok. but i like to manipulate and ask the same questions over and over again. oh yes, just to clear my doubts hahaha). i need to share with you sth, on the graduation day(28/10. late i know) my teacher the ever sweet-loving one, miss mel read a speech for her dearly 4e4.(IM ONE OF THEM RAH) so she was like saying "the ever sweet care bears in class bla bla bla... so i was somehow waiting for my name to be read since im a sweet care bear at class. so waited and waited GUESS WHAT???? she categorized me, sham, kai qing, bryan and nan under the drama mama and papa! haha i almost laughed. am i that drama? ok, all my cousins say im a drama QUEEN(proud? OBVIOUSLY). my uncle isk says im a drama queen but he doesnt know he's a drama king and i inherit the 'drama-blood' from him lol! so get the origin right uncle!! so yeah, my parent say im noisy and talkative. true but i know when to shut up and they say i like to berangan(daydream sth like that??? my malay sucks la). hey when things get so bored, ill just lock myself in my room(heaven/paradise/all the nice adjectives) and talk to myself hahah crazy?? no, its fun try it! or maybe shake your ass like noone's business or maybe try out clothes that are revealing and you cant wear it on streets! so i do that when im bored hahah(gosh, secrets revealed)lol. but, im so sicked and tired of it hahahahah so i just suck my thumb and smell my pillow which i have since 2 and go to lalala land lol! suck my thumb???? no la how old sia! do you know that my dad nags more than my mum?? such a wonder right?? yes true, my dad will be the one yanking why im home so late bla bla! my mum will be the cool one not so cool but cool! haha weird definitely!

ok, enough of my craps. my goals for this holiday:
1) lose weight(im 48 Kg now) :(
2) watch a lot of movies
3) be daddy's daughter(ive always been)
4) think of more crappy jokes( i need to plan and crack to make pple laugh so unnatural chey! so not me. NATURAL JOKER CAN??? hahah)
5) be a more sensible girl
6) study for A level (lol.skip this)
7) be with mariah carey at paris
8) get prada/gucci latest edition of bags(which is hope for the impossible)
9) go ice-skating with my class
10) have a bbq cum bryan's bdae celebration at my place(they plan it i was like WOW.lol)
11) butts out with my class
12) chalet with my class(everywhere is fully booked.crap)
13) go to italy this holiday
14) take a snap with frank lampard(purely to make sham go green.lol)
15) kiss jay chou on the cheeks and make him open his eyes bigger when he sees me because im pretty(he looks as if he doesnt have an eye.pathetic)
16) sleepover on the streets.
17) go telling pple ill be the MISS UNIVERSE 2008(wende believes in me.YAY)
18) get married to adam sandler and make him sing the song he sang at the wedding planner(is it? forget.lol)
19) chill out at pubs with brad pitt and ditch angelina jolie
20) be a prada/gucci/fendi/guess full-time model
*oh pls pray and of these will be fulfiled!!! and pray for me to do well in Os! thanks pple!
alright, im turning in nights. having bbq at my place on tues with my friends. lol I CANT WAIT
lalalalalalalalalalalallalalalallalalalallalalalallalalalalallalalallalalalalallalallalalallalalalallalallalalallala

love,
fat

2005-11-26T09:20:00.000-08:00

i love this song, dont forget about us by Mariah Carey(yes, im so in love with her)

Intro:
(Don't forget about us)
Don't baby, don’t baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby boy...

(Verse I)
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby

(Bridge I)
Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

(Chorus)
Late nights, Late nights, playing in the dark and waking up inside my arms
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us
I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

(Verse II)
Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

(Bridge II)
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

(Rap)
And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she can't do like me
She'll never be MC
Baby don't you, don't you forget about us

(Chorus x2)
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us.

* yay! i love this song!!! its beyond words to describe the song and the lyrics are just so meaningful RAH! yeah. i browsed thru SPCA's website! i blame my parent for not having me earlier. age requirement:17(cool! im still stuck at 15!) but but, below 17 ure able to help out in the rest except for animal shelter. SUCKS BIG TIME FUGG! there is where i want to volunteer myself in! yes, im so sad! i checked the standard chartered marathon.. ok all CLOSED(cool or what?) so, im stuck with dunno-what-to-do-at-home! rah! im doing some vacuuming later since my eyes wouldnt want to rest! WAIT, actually ive rested well enough! imagine i woke at 12??? lol! bad bad i know! so, i seriously need to have an aim for the day so i wont pig all the time!!! so, went to ask my mum, she said "u wake up early cook la" (dots dots) how boring can my mum get???? maybe ill volunteer myself in some petshops or childcare. ill see bout it! but dont ask me to babysit my lil bro at home who is 14 and depends on me for food! get a life and cook for yourself! so u see, im bored. i need to do sth fruitful like volunteering! anyways, today is BRYAN'S bdae i wished him at 12 YAY! happy bdae BRYAN. ure a year older than me now! FOR NOW haha! on mon, ill be watching PRIME with fai. YAY! another movie date.

a few pics editted by shahrul since hes good at it might as well ask him right hahah! thnx ah! anyway hes turning 16 pretty soon! slow huh? wakakakwkakakakaka

3 hassan's(grandpa's name) angels sent from above teehee. i look ugly, i know.

thats my cousins! oww we love taking photos! esp when all of us were to push one another!! i love them all! *colourful love never beats other loves*

done by shah! nice right? i know!! so try out photography man! u should la!

so a blog cite for you for helping me to edit the photos. haha. but thank me for keeping u occupied! rah!!
alright thats all love ya all!

2005-11-25T23:40:00.000-08:00

5 facts about me by the nothing-to-do ath (lol)

1) im LOUD thats for sure.
2) i have the habit of yawning without covering my big lioness's mouth! lol
3) i burp everywhere.
4) i hate misunderstandings and bla bla bla
5) i love those who love me. YAY! so call me a humanitarian lover? yup!

*ath are sure u need only 5 facts? because i can list them down to a hundred baby! RAH!

im done. i bet my lil bestis, ath has nth better to do. because she is doing all these stupid personal test! get a life honey! come and kiss me thats better! lol love ya all!

im gonna bring myself to reality and let the beauty air blow me to which ever direction it may lead me to. ok crap. lol

2005-11-25T07:05:00.000-08:00

i went to paris for a lunch date with my family. ridiculous, i know.
alright, the food was superb. i ate alot. god, im born with a bottomless pit!(if you know what i mean).
the flight was alright. daddy booked the first air tickets! president suite can you believe it! i love daddy! lol. i was having a lil air-sick(is there such a term?) but it got better as the stewardess gave me sweets to eat! so there i go, munching like pig plus i was wearing RED lol! gosh, when i stepped out of the plane, paris air welcomed me with open arms. one touched i could least forget! RAH! i love paris! so after lunch. i shopped with mum! prada gucci! NAME IT! i bought a prada sunglasses! rah i look super cool! im in love with paris! one enjoyable TRIP! thnx dad thnx mum!

then, i reach spore about 9? then, beep my honey to meet me. oh wells, he did! haha

thats all.
love,
fat

2005-11-23T05:48:00.000-08:00

alright pple, just a quick alert!
*if you happen to be kai qing's wake up caller, do call her like 1 hr in advance because that girl will just doze off after whoever the receiver is end the call* lol but she is so adorable when she is in the state of panic! haha

we actually needed to be in school by 0830! i woke up at 07 50(not so bad if i live behind the sch but i live miles away from sch so ill still be late) so after i woke up and regain my sanity after what i called the dreamless night?, i called my gf(kai qing):
fat: woi wake up!
qingz:huh? i dunno. i love you cannot be separated.
(not only shes late but INSANE and when i told her what she said when we got at sch, she said she couldnt remember anything. lol)
fat:quick la late already.
qingz: late is us(shit to you la bitch) hahaha
*end call

im ready to hit the roads and i received a call AGAIN
qingz: fud!!!! where are you? i just woke up!
fat: WHAT THE???? quick i wait for you!
end call

another call from wende:
wende: where are you?(in his so man voice haha)
fat: on the bus kai qing late la so i am waiting for her.
wende: ok i wait for you girls(SWEEEET NOT LOL)

alright everyone was at sch at 0900!
when we entered the ava roon guess what?!!!!
THE BRIEFING HAS ENDED! i was laughing my heads off!
THANKS AH KAI QING!
then we headed to cp for breakfast at mac, then we headed to shams place and Kai qing lost her phone but thank god someone so kind returned! Thank you for helping my asshole friend!lol
supposed to watch goal at sham's place but ended up sleeping. and then i went off to home!!

second part of the afternoon: went for a jog with fai.
ok, we jog for 10 km? wow i bet my fats are burnt. its pretty productive tho! really! so we jogged and jogged! fai said i jog slow but look who is talking la. while he was telling me god know im so in front of him way in front! so who is the slow ass now?lol so after a pretty tiring jog, we took a break and rested at the nearby shelter aronud my house area. guess who was lying so-almost deadly? FAIZAL la! i took a picture of him la but to avoid losing face, he deleted it. HAHAHA. fai im so mean right? lol. and we jogged again. he challenged me to run with him until the traffic junction. but, i gave in because looking at him so pale and frail so pitiful plus hes my bf lol. so ya! later, we advertise for drinks only me. because he was just too tired to pose for a pic. sad right i know! hahah and we went home! lol and whoever believes this shit is truly one bloody stupid shit lol hahah! i wonder if he ever wants to jog with me ever again... trust me he will! lol

i dont know what course to choose! rah! kai qing call me when youre choosing because i dont understand anything. thanks to you la lol.

alright love ya all!

do you know how the hell did i main tain my stamina, i drank yakult. fai drank peel fresh which SO not advisable! and so i am the champion today! YAY!

thats me and faizal. ok i look shagged YUCK! but its worth it because i burn my fats! lol and faizal hes hot as ever lol!

have fun pple!

2005-11-22T05:48:00.000-08:00

its so bored that im blogging.
im going to sch tmr to apply for the JC thingy.
so i need to wake up real early. sigh(then ill miss aday of waking up so late like 11. urgh)
im going with kai qing and we re applying for the same JC.
but i tell you, if Os cannot make it, damn pai sei la. so, i pray that i can make it. insyallah
so meetinh kai qing at sch after that we ll be haeding to sham's place for a party!!!
gonna watch GOAL yay!!! and sham gonna cook for us? yeah? so i plan to bring my own utensils, i tell you its so hard to be me. lol my friends know what i mean abut sham said she has the plastic ones so yay! i dont have to bring. i feel like a guest! yahoooo! so tmr is gonna be fun fun! and when i get home im gonna jog with faizal and we re planning to do sth stupid! ull see tmr! lol that is his idea TRUST ME! do you even thing a so-sensible girl like me will come out with such crap? NO! so its him! haha
hey ive watched HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE! with idiots_7 and some others! so fun pls! cedric diggory died and i almost cried! and hes so hot so are daniel and ron RAH! i went gaga over their hot bods! ron is the cutest guy in BRITAIN! so ya! it was great lucky me sham booked the average seats! haha poor others! and i had fun watching and admiring the hotties in the show and they are like SO MANY!!! wide variety to choose from! later met up with fai to get my phone repaired. im seeing him everyday!!! WOOOO lol
today, faizal challenged me to eat alot! i did alright! i finished his food! and he said im fat no he didnt say directly bt he said i eat alot so ya i inferred well enough! so i ate and i won! YAY! and so tmr we re planning to go jogging to burn the calories! alright thats all!
oh ya shah and gang came to my hse funny ppl! lol
alright till here! holidays are boring sometimes but im making it enjoyable hahah!

love, fat

2005-11-20T06:41:00.000-08:00

EXORCISM OF EMILY ROSE
was a very scary show NOT!!! i didnt even shout during the show. but, my boyfriend was complaining that he was scared.. i was like hello ure supposed to be the man and ure scared. he covered his mouth when the exorcism took place. but he was cute pls. Plaza Singapura was so packed pls. ok heres the story, i bokked the tickets the day before. i booked the 5.50 show YAY!!!! but wait my boyfriend was late and our tickets are released for sale. *&(*(*&@**&#**@(* hahah. but he wore a long sleeve shirt that made me go gaga and drooling over him. he looked hot pls! but he still walks funny that i tried changing but cannot!!!!! so we were given 3 hrs of walking around orchard road which was seriously packed! but, it was so fun with him!! SO FUN!!! i played catching with him! but, ill always win i dont know why!!! aww.. i never want that night to end. so today i was trying to be sweet and asked why must yesterday end? he said: err because there is a better tmr! ok hes good at doing this!!! RAH!!!!! so the show ended pretty later so i reached home at 11 plus and on our way back, faizal's leg trembled. we never found out what had caused the tremble but he shook and he made me laugh! hahaha.
im gonna catch HARRY POTTER WITH MY PEEPS tmr and catch up with fai after that and do our stuffs. lol cool aint we? yeah we are! alright till here...
love,fat
(if this is love, then im a happy girl)

2005-11-18T07:36:00.000-08:00

OMG ITS HELLOVER!

i wanna PARTY all night long oOoOoo lalala
chemistry was alright esp paper 1. the questions are repeated... i think cambridge is testing my intelligence lol. im glad its repeated actually. paper 2 was alright manageable. oh gosh, pls pray i would do well for Os. pls pls pls pls

so after paper, all of us went NUTS! we shouted and the chief examiner said "pls be considerate, one of your schoolmates is still doing the paper". omg, he is so cute pls. he wore brown today and i could just sit and stare but i was so loving chemistry that neglect his presence but NOT kai qing. she got so sad that she cant take pic with him. i was like "youre nuts,ass" haha and WE WENT TO CHOMP CHOMP FOR CELEBRATION!!!

there wasnt any malay stall except for one satay stall. sad sad sad. so i crossed over with wende to get my food. pathetic i know!!! but no choice. and the chicken looked juicy!! URGH! and they ate last!!! i was like "eh, eat lei pls pls". and sham didnt eat the chicken's skin and shes the dumbest bitch ive ever seen lol. fats she or so claimed---- whatever haha.

after dinner the longest one ive been to, we walked to my house yeah scary. AND WENDE chickened out. call himself a guy! gosh and still had the urge to disturb bryan! and bryan is so hilarious pls, he told us bout his pri sch life. and ive never seen any guy like him. lol pardon me bryan :)

harry potter is on a full house URGH!!!!!! watching with my peeps and maybe meeting up with my baby for exorcism of emily rose. he said ill shout. we ll see :). lol
alright, ppls bugging me for photos!!! RAH!!

and ive got lots of stuffs to shop for!!!!!!! like bag bag bag bag bag bag bag bag!!!!! lol bad i know!! i love that nike bag!! RAH!! the white one RAH!!!!

i wanna volunteer myself at the ZOO!! with sham and qing!!! RAH!!!!! and ill make sure the lions eat them so the world is in peace. lol

i wanna PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna spend time with you!!!!!!!! at the beach!!!!!!!!!!! just us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love,fat

2005-11-17T05:09:00.000-08:00

faizal said he loves me a lot. and i said i love him more. but he argued he loves me even more but i said i love him more and the fight goes on.... lol.

he treated me like a friend today haha BUT i still love him. lol

FAIZAL LOVES ME. I LOVE MY BABY TOOOOOOO :)

2005-11-16T23:11:00.000-08:00

I think he looks hot when he smiles :)

anyway, had a math paper 2 today.YAY, its do-able(i hope to at least an A? haha pls pls pls)
i dont mind what grade i get, as long as i did my best BUT pls la cambridge give me A can??
physics was boring but i still did my best. thank god, god gave me the power to crap, crap logically i mean. and ONE MORE DAY and Os is hell over! oOoOoOoOoO lalalalala :)

after paper, i went to have my breakfast with fai. i think he looks hot when he smiles. Cute can? Oh ya, faizal really talks to me like he talks to his friends. theres always the word 'bodoh' in every of his lines(ok, not every), he hit my hand to say that he wanted to shake hands with me(what the hell?) and said take care. and it felt good to punch him in the stomach! AND IM SUPPOSED TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND hahaha. powerpac ah fai.

yeah gonna mug for chem which i dont have the mood too.OH GOSH! pls pls pinch me if i dont. anyone! pray for me to do well aite? i hope so!!!

love,fat

cio

2005-11-11T06:36:00.000-08:00

I JUST HOPE ILL DO WELL FOR MY O LEVEL(pls dear god)

my brother's friends are NUTS pple!!!!

i have to bbq chickens, hotdogs and many more for them..
and they still complaint
and complaint
and complaint
and they said imma real good cook! haha

is that when things are so perfect and beautiful the evil monster will come and destroy that happiness which is to difficult to achieve.
its difficult.
its difficult.
i lied what can i say..
anyway, tata all the best for Os pple
ONE MORE DAMN WEEK.

everything was fine one moment,
it'd go trashing the next,
it'd tear me,
it'd reap me,
eat me up slowly,
slowly,
wrenching my already broken heart,
and we'll be ok once more,
my ache was healed,
but,
the monster will reap my happiness again,
tear me apart,
send tears in the night,
those tears that ive promised not to shed.
for once i know i was loved,
and hoped to be loved,
to be loved by yoo,
and just yoo.
-fat

2005-10-03T04:01:00.000-07:00

IM A POKEMON
but my owner, nantha had threw me away. how sad!

had so much fun at school just now. i laughed till i teared. im a pokemon with a power of flirting(my strength). i provide service for my owner obviously he found me boring and threw me! he's now taking care of snorlex,dominic. DOMINIC IS A BITCH! lol now, im on the advertising list.

" WHO WANTS ME???"

see, i need to make a public advertising :( anyone?

say goodbye to my once luxuriuos poke-life with my owner, nan!
bryan, we named you DITTO(he's truly one.lol)
alright, heres all for now. i need to MUG(im hearing my dad's bickerings. sorry daddy)

loves.fat

2005-09-30T07:39:00.000-07:00

IM GOING TO MUG HARDER yeah?
(of course i will! im so promising 4 disntinctions for Os)

how could Chad Michael Murray and Sophia bush broke off(btw, they were married)? this is so against human violation. they're are such a sweet couple in hollywood(i swear, i tell you) and Chad actually had 500 CANDLES to spell "would you marry me" when proposing to Sophia sweet aint it? oh gosh i envy her*greens. THIS IS INJUSTICE. lol. FATU,(my new name at school),look at the bright side, YOU CAN HAVE CHAD(wooohoooo)

.
sweet? i bet they are :)

so far did ok for prelims no failing yet HOWEVER a lot of improvements to be made. I LOST 8 MARKS in a math just like that(thnx to a minus sign and my ans triggered) fug. but, i promise ill bring glory in february(miss mel you got me!) i hope i can get into first 3 months(any jcs will do, do you think RJ will call me up?) if not, im going to work at Sentosa with the dolphins this is so COOL!

arent you amazed by the power of time? think, it seems yesterday i said, "i cant believe O level is in ten months time." oh ya now, im left with 4 weeks???? yeah 4 pple 4 pple! so keep on going!
love.fat
(do your practice till your ten years series disintegrate!!!!!)

2005-09-28T07:00:00.000-07:00

A WALK TO REMEMBER
(my all time FAVOURITE movie)

i can watch it like A THOUSAND TIMES and and still get emotionally uptight in the show!
LANDON CARTER so sweet can!
it's all about teen love.(a beyond extraodinary one)
i hope mine turns out like that(minus the leukemia thingy)
Love is patient.
Love is kind.
Love is never jealous.
It is never boastful or conceited.
It never takes pleasure on people’s sins, but delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.

-a walk to remember
(this is one part of the story THAT I CANT AFFORD TO FORGET!!!!)

this my favourite scene in the movie. ARENT THEY JUST SWEET OR WHAT?

i want to get married to can.... like that reading that verse!!!! oh gosh but im a malay/muslim so oww too bad! lol

CATCH MEET THE BARKERS EVERY TUES AT 10.30 ON MTV!
they re the sweetest couple/parent i ever seen. so cool!!!

travis and shanna barker.

SHE IS MY SISTER. SHAKE IT OFF PPLE. WE RE RULING TATA

Mimi

ok. PRELIMS IS OVER. but, i dread going to school having to take back my oh so interesting results!!! i hope ill reap what ive sowed :) (least likely la). chem was alright la did my best so ya let god do the rest/teacher's mood too(i hope they wont be on a hiatus mood having to CROSS all my answers.lol
had chem prac after CHEM PAPER. that was the coolest thing ever. by the time, im shagged. and the class get a lil to noisy and I HAD TO USE MY LOUD VOICE AND SHOUT TO THE out-of-control class(mdm tung is suffering from a majorous sore throat).
after prac we, wende, kok wei, sham, dominic and me, went to cp for late lunch. we ate at KFC. ive been craving for the cripsy chicken since monday so I GOT TO EAT TODAY! yay and we talked and crapped and HORROR STORY by Wong kok wei. lol he looked(take not of the tenses) cute when he is serious lol.
OH GOSH!
SOMEONE PLS SALVAGE ME FROM THIS EVER-PRESSURISING WORLD!

love.fat

2005-09-26T20:24:00.000-07:00

PRELIMS, be gone pls.

oh my holy shemolie i hope i wont SCREW UP my prelims.
today was a math P2. it was alright.
sometimes, i really blame the calclutor for not calculating CORRECTLY!
there was this question of relative velocity,
i got the steps SIMILAR to all the brainies in my class.
BUT,
my ans was very weird. pple tell me 30 and 8 how major differences does it holds?
and yeah when i pressed MY DAMN calculator AFTER the paper!
I GOT THE SAME ANS AS THE BRAINS! argh!
is it me? or the calculator. still figuring.
but, overall the paper was alright.
i passed my a math P1 (praise the lord).

tmr's paper is chemistry.
i HOPE i wont screw up its contents!
CANT BELIEVE ILL BE MUGGING WITH CHEM TONIGHT not so bad as compared to MUGGING WITH PHYSICS which is so the-huh-subject.
pray for me!

after chem paper WE CANT GO HOME JUST YET!
mdm tung had put a practical slor for our class(totally holy shemolie)
it starts at one(not so bad, since we can go out and have our lunch)
BUT NO,
mrs cheng told us today we will be getting back our eng paper 2 tmr.
OH GOSH!
i hope ill do alright.(i really do hope).

watched American's next top model yesterday.
KAHLEN IS SO ADORABLE. uRGH. and guess what?!
SHE REMINDS ME OF THE PERSON TYPING THIS NOW!
thats me.
alright im gonna take a short nap(ill make sure its short or ill blame EVERYTHING except me!lol)
and im gonna MUG(eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee)

love.fat(all the best pple)

2005-09-11T20:18:00.000-07:00

PRELIMS TAKING ITS TOLL ON MY LIFE. lol

im using the word "lol" in every of my sentence. YES, EVERY! blame faizal. grr... just all the best for prelims(gosh, i need all those luck and prayers). and im so in these route of BELIEVING IN MYSELF, I CAN DO IT.(try it).

TMR'S schedule:
eng paper 1
e math paper 1
i hope i wont screw in any of it(praying so hard for it).

in life, there are always ups and downs. we just gotta put ourselves together and overcome every obstacle with dignity and determination for every obstacle u overcome, you have passed a life test and you ll expect a MORE challenging test in time to come. NO ONE is freed from troubles, remember that. come on ure a STRONG guy. i know you better than anyone. ill be here always :) love ya.

alright, all the best to the people under the refuge of MOE mainly those sitting for a major i-want-to-get-out-from-secondary-sch-exam, all the best for prelims. GOD BLESS SINGAPORE!

love.fat(it's yoo that i want)

2005-09-08T02:44:00.000-07:00

FAIZAL MADE ME GO ALL THE WAY TO KOVAN AND HE FORGOT TO TAKE THE WORKSH WHICH WAS THE MAIN REASON WE MET...

and he told me when i reached my hse. lol. he's an ass with a hole. ASSHOLE. lol and im an asshole too because i forgot to give it to him knowing that fai is a forgetful gayboy. oh ya, he was looking at this guy and he ACTUALLY EYED HIM. i was... "are u a gay?"

im not handing baseless allegations. TAKE A LOOK AT HIS FRIENDSTER'S TESTIMONIALS. just go to my profile(squiffy) and do a search for boyportugese. CLICK! and may the truth be spoken before you. lol

i hope kai qing qill get well soon :) love ya.

love.fat(had a great time)

2005-09-05T01:03:00.000-07:00

BRUNO COULAIS RAWKS (im in love.oh gosh help me)

blame my brother for introducing me this album(LES CHORISTES). it's very pleasant to hear, i tell you. better than any songs that will drive me mad any second. it's like a group of children in a choir singing. call me boring pple, i dont care. anyway, they even have a movie to it!!!!(and my ever-sweet loving bro have it) and ive watched it. it's very touching. im not gonna tell you pple what the story is all about(get to know it yourself).

ok, firstly my PIN number is blocked(my hp). next, i COULDNT FIND MY PHONE UNTIL I LOOK UNDER MY BED! lol. oh ya, blame my cousin for not asking me my PIN number of not all this wouldnt be happening(it's because i love him so much that i didnt flare up.lol love me man. and i was too busy to care for the well-being of my phone!) NOW THAT IVE FOUND MY PHONE, I NEED MY DAD TO GET HIS VOICE ON THE PHONE AND TALK TO WHOEVER HE IS SUPPOSED TO TALK TO.(am i not trustable?, screw starhub).

ok, he called woohoo(i mean that was like the first ever time he called me as in call, call that ive not been expecting) OoOoOoo lala. oh what now, i regretted not putting that happy tone(apart from it was too unexpected and i swear i was filled with euphoria-ness). he said sorry. i never blamed you. and we hung up. and he called again(i swear i was jumping when i saw his name flashing on the phone display(or is it its name? i dont care). and he said something shant disclose. but, i was more happier than the birds in the paradise, i swear. ok, im still happy RIGHT NOW. urgh, now i want my dad to get his ass home NOW! but but but, im STILL VERY HAPPY. u can practically see me smiling from ear to ear RIGHT NOW. blame him.(i like the word blame huh?) eh eh, do give me unexpected calls next time.(if ure reading this, lol). i dont care about other pple giving me unexpected calls and couldnt be bother to blog it here but its from you, tell me bout it baby. lol.

i was later today(holy jesus christ) lol. im a muslim it's supposed to be ya allah lol. but, i wasnt that very late see the difference! i mugged for geo test! GUESS WHAT?! there was NO test(but,i never regretted mugging for gods sake prelims a week apart)! so, yeah we did a school paper. it was alright. and talked to miss mel for a while. and went to heartland mall to get priveend's present(sham's bro) shall i say irritating bro? haha. i got him a soccer ball (kill me for that i never get soccer ball for anyone's bdae not even my bro) shoot me sham, hes gonna kick the ball IN THE HOUSE GOOD LUCK.lol

and went home. played with anisah, amir and abg. we played monkey. i wasnt the monkey for long thnx to the presence of the SHORTIES. haha im tall like for once!!!! haha
and they went home.sigh. miss them loads!

alright i wanna bath and get grooving with a amath(its all bout yoo)

because of yoo,
god gave me strength to live.
because of yoo,
i was happy all the way.
because of you,
im a better person now.
because of yoo,
i love myself.

it's all bacause of yoo. lol. im in a super high mode now. SOMEONE PLS PRESS THE LOW MODE BUTTON!!! lol

love.fat

2005-09-04T03:13:00.000-07:00

PIC WHORING

nisah, amir and me. aren they just superliciuosly adorable?! but beat me first kiddos. oh ya, anisah said if im a bed, she ll buy me. lol

ok my bro is my hairdresser. his high taste of fashion makes me go wild simply because its too OUTRAGEOUS. but, hes the coolest guy ive ever met. tell me of a guy that shaves his legs? lol

even how cool a person is, they have a retard look for themselves. lol

me and nisah. check out the bug teeth. she sparayed perfume in her mouth. lol

me and nisah. the drama mama, anisah and the hot brown babe, me.

thats her.

shes just a lil too young for a blast in music. WEAK LA

look at me. FOCUS ON ME.

she does make a great hairdresser one day. my bro's hair turned out GOOD

my MESSY table. does is show that im mugging hard? lol

my living room. very messy isnt it?! and if u take a closer look ull see a retard on the sofa :)

ppl ask why i have such great fig or so i claim, well check out the stairs. lol

can u spot hakim? if u do, come to me and ill give a great night stand :) lol

alright thats all
ive been mugging with geo. gosh, there's alot to cover. there ll be a test tmr to see where we stand. all the best to all.

oh well, had a great time yesterday. red eye was a boring. and things got horrible today.sigh.

love.fat

2005-09-02T08:13:00.000-07:00

BE YOUSELF DAY CUM TEACHERS' DAY

i had lotsa fun. im so gonna miss my friends. time flies and guess what im not faraway from graduation :( but, memories are kept close to me all the time guys. love u guys dearly. YES, I DO!

here are the pics i took:

i love these girls.

the 'cool' hunks

4e4 rawks big hell of a time. we re the fantastic and cool pple :

van sham qing and me(idiots' girls)

mira and me. hot babe and the girl next door.haha but i love her

mr selva and me. the teacher that always shut me up but i still love him :)

well shes my darling, miss mel and me. shes like my sister man. my role model(except for the shrieky voice shes born with.haha)

thats all pple. going to have a study date with fai. and watch RED EYE(to sham, too bad) haha love ya

love.fat

2005-09-01T04:02:00.000-07:00

FRIENDSHIP IS THE SHIP I NEVER WANNA SELL

friends that we are,
we craved for every success,
we strived for the top,
we dreamt for the best,
and i never live a day,
without thinking that friends are meant to last.

Is yoo that kept me dancing on the floor, making love in a closed restaurant.

as i stood by,
the wind whized past me,
i could feel it,
i couldnt see it,
just like yoo,
we seemed afar,
but,
yoo've placed yourself in my heart,
and yoo will be there till the end of time.

2005-08-31T08:52:00.000-07:00

FAITH- it's me and yoo

yoo shot me with a stringe,
filled with love,
that never dies to arouse me,
from the world of fairylands.

yoo slashed me with a blade,
that cut deep inside,
the pain was penetrating into the blood streams,
and i felt,
its torrential flow of pain in the blood.

as i gazed up,
i saw the wish,
the hope,
the affection,
i saw yoo,
stars were shaped of yoo,
i never deny,
that i never want that night to end,
for i just need yoo,
to look over me,
to love me.

as i looked out of that window,
battered and shattered,
yoo appeared in illusion.
lumiscent light shined yoo,
yoo were there,
but somehow,
it seemed so far,
i want yoo back,
for me, will yoo?

faith is you and me,
it is made for us,
to live strongly,
against all odds,
faith is in us baby.

hey, i love yoo so much.
faith-is me and yoo

2005-08-30T05:42:00.000-07:00

FIRST IT WENT GIDDY, THEN IT WENT NAUSEATIC THEN EVEYTHING WENT OUT(BULIMIC)

i choked the school's sink! feeling sick.
my stomach's acid is reacting faster than it supposed to(i diagnosed myself since doctors give me FALSE PRESCRIPTION)
i can be a doctor i tell you.

love.fat

praise the lord my swollen eye subside :)
gosh tmr is be yourself day. im gonna be a pirate with my left eye covered.
OoOoOoOoOoO lalala(not bad right actually)

2005-08-28T23:15:00.000-07:00

PIC-WHORING TIME

ULP and Director's award ceremony

gosh. im darned proud of him. :)

me and kavi. love her so much

me and XW

me and ZW

me and my darling, JH. i received the director's award.haha

mizael and US. gosh i miss them dearly :(

love them

me and zelly. seen him grow. from an ass to a sensible ass

MUSTAQIM'S BDAE

my paternal side

he can be so naughty yet so adorable argh.

my niece, sofia isnt she just adorable? haha

MY GRANDPA'S BDAE

celebrated his bdae at Tepak Sireh

MY grandpa. it's a rare pic said my bro. he usually never smiles!

my family.

my bro and I

retarded fattah

my metro sexual bro.haha

love.fat

2005-08-28T22:21:00.000-07:00

I HAVE AN INFECTED EYE.

boohooo

doctor saw told me that it was a pimple.
ok people tell me bout a pimple with a ball of pus parasiting on your left eye.
PAINFUL AND JUST FRUSTRATING
so i didnt go to sch today(29/8). im gonna miss alot of lesson.trust me.
i begged for a 2-day MC. i mean come on you cant possibly expect me to go around with an infected eye and passer-bys will be like "eeee, whats that?". so i decided to make a home stay till it subsides.
went to a specialist centre last night. thank god the doctor is hot or else i swear ill break his neck.
I JUST NEED YOU TO GET THIS BALL OF PUS OUT. he gave me and oral anitibiotic(you are suppose to eat. thats what he said). so, i got home still with "mr ugly" with me.
now, the pus is flowing like no one's business. i need a whole supply of tissuebox who knows it keeps leaking like a spoilt running tap.
well, despite living a parasite on my eye, i still study.oh gosh, i swear i need to squint my eyes to read. but that thing grew so big that when i squinted, I COULD NOT SEE A THING. so, i made a do with my right eye. yipppeee
i watched soccer match yesterday. powerpac man. oh gosh i still cant believe i actually stayed up at night to catch manU and newcastle battled against one another to get a kick into the goal post. CAN U IMAGINE 22 PEOPLE CHASING FOR A BALL WHICH WORTHS A BALL.
it was fun though. i learnt a few things bout soccer: off side.(actually one thing).
then, i talked to faizal. he begged me to sleep on the phone with him. i did and i totally forget to give him a morning call today. i just hope he wasnt late. haha
alright. im gonna bath and head off to work.

love.fat(pray for my eye)

2005-08-24T22:07:00.000-07:00

the point of no return,
blunders you made,
words you uttered,
it cut some people,
they bled,
you re the blade,
they re the paper,
a slash cut deep,
it hurt,
they writhed in agony,
pleading you to take away the pain,
to stop what you re doing,
it was hurting too much,
they couldnt stop the pain,
you left a pain in them,
THERE WAS NO POINT OF RETURN.
what you did, had left people hurting.
hurt till they felt inferior of you.
"STAY AWAY" was return on you.
you left alone.
you regretted.
you wanted to turn back time,
you begged from god the almighty,
he gave you a second chance;
he said he cant turn back time,
but,
he told you, it was never too late to utter a word of apology.
a simple 5-letter word will thus make your world light again.
and you will never want to put yourself in such a grave situation anymore,
it hurts too much.
you learnt,
people will accept you for the way you are.
true friends will always be there for you,
be it figuratively or mentally or emotinally,
friends are meant to last.

love.fat(there is always a turning point my dear)

aw

2005-08-19T19:14:00.000-07:00

did titration and QA yesterday. i only get 2 of my readings right when i was doing 5 times of titration. see how pathetic it is. but it was fun!

yes, sham destroyed the bookmark wende gave me. she was in green when she saw what wende gave me haha. so, when i was reading, she pulled it from me. ta---da, its destroyed. hahax.

i am reading this book: chicken soup for teenage soul IV. yes, it is a source of inspiration for me. the stories in that book really touch the very core of my heart. whenever, im reading the last part of each story, my hair on my neck will stand. yes, see how touching it is.

in family life, love is the oil that eases friction, the cement that binds closer together, and the music that brings harmony.
i was utterly amazed of how true it is actually that family is the most important that i need in life. but sadly, sometimes i took them for granted. having to believe and not think that they ll be gone someday. so, im treasuring them like i treasure my frail and soft heart. they are the ones that will stand behind us in times of sorrows. not others, but my family. i thank god for blessing me with such a great family. PRAISE ALLAH! even how naggy they are, they still love us since they first laid their eyes on us :) love them too.

then, i had lunch with wende, sham and dominic. ok, it was FUN. we re talking bout guys acting cool and being so typical in every ways. why cant they be like me? SO UNIQUE. haha then, we saw the guides from our sch running at CP. they re playing some sort of game(not really quite sure). they are known as the "pusher" in our sch with their shrill of screams and "huha" and "OOoOOooO lala" whatever.

thnx to sham, i was made to walk from cp to our sch to dominic's place to wende's bus stop. i was being forced to do so. anyway, i did it out of my freewill. love me guys. as we walked, we crapped. i sang so did dominic. but, i scolded him for interrupting my moments(my voice nice ok!) hahax.

went for madrasah. i was so happy that nad, naz and ais were there. they said i laughed like a monster(im sad) but, i dont care so i kept lauhing! OoOoOoO lala khairi has the most attractive pair of eyes whick looks so sham! here is the one thing i learnt from one of my ustazah: WE (GIRLS) CANNOT LAY OUR HANDS MAKE IT WORST FINGERS ON GUYS! ok guilty torments me! so, i told that to naz and i told her to that we need to fast to renew ourselves haha. we re so the guilty the party! and later, naz baptised us(our usual thing) and we went home! i miss them!

alright i need to get things going. love.fat

2005-08-16T01:47:00.000-07:00

O level english oral

well, we did some peer checking on each other reading.
YAY. my group did well *claps to all*
this was a piece of advice from the shabalalala me:
-be confident, thats only when u feel less nervous-
i was nervous myself,no doubt(everyone is)
but i kept it cool. cracked some lame jokes with nan.
he is teaching me all those flying kisses and did on me
*ewww* but i like can! :)
well my conscience told me that, i did my best and i have no regrets.(i really hope)
had a short talk with mrs cheng(she rawks)
she asked how we think we did.
i just told her that i did my best and have no regrets.
went back with bryan, nan and van.
saw wende and sham at the bus stop. catched up with them and talked bout the oral.
im glad that most of us think we gave our best(praise the lord)
and we took pictures using nan's phone woooohooo
and got back!

ok this was what happened in eng period.
i was laughing over such stoopid acts of qing
and i slipped and fell(thnx to my non-friction space shoes)
i was a laughing stock(since when am i not?) haha

do u think i have what it takes to be the next american's top model?
i can do the catwalk ok, ask yong!
woohoo but must potray a stern look that wouldnt be a prob anyway!
walla, CATCH ME ON HIGH NOTED MAGAZINE COVER yay!

well, was thinking bout this the other day.
why teenagers(most) resort to suicide?
first thing that popped up in my mind was love.
love is a beautful thing. why make it as though it sounds so bad.
falling in love is never a mistake that u have done in your life!
in fact, none of the decisions u have made in life is regretful.
ITS UR LIFE, U CHART YOUR LIFE!

the % of indocile teenagers are so rising.
im so one of them(sometimes)
but, i have well-instilled self discipline in me
oh boy, am i so self-deluding? haha

kudos, to those who have succeed in life! yipppe

love.fat

2005-08-15T04:26:00.000-07:00

had a great time at sch.
stayed back for a lil while to help out some of my friends with oral reading and conversation.
dont worry. u guys we ll sure make it! just have a lil confidence in yourself!
chen hang. hang on alright.

i adore chen hang's hardwork and determination.
he is from china and cant speak fluent english.
but he is trying so hard, i can see.
and at the end of every tunnel,
they bound to be a light!
so, ill make sure ur hardwork will be dissolved to tears of joy in the year end!
i believe in you! yes, i do!

and to the rest.
all the best.
im freaking out myself (shall recite some prayers later)

well, love can be so hurtful when things get so heat up.
maybe, a white lie isnt good afterall.
its alright then.
i hope things will get better.
love is not a mistake that ive done in my life.
i treasure u and thats why im doing this.
but, u dont seem to fathom me.
i dont blame u at any cost.
afterall, its my fault. i ll pay the price. the consequences.

love.fat

2005-08-14T04:48:00.000-07:00

i admire muhammad shahrulnizam's art of work.
OoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoO lalalalalalalalalalalala.
for being a brilliant beyond brilliant friend,
I, Fathiah Abdul Talib, will display his works IN MY BLOG.
(be happy, shah)

im sorry if i lied to you. i know i shouldnt have. i know. but, what if were to tell? its alright. ill try to tell everything u want to know. and im sorry. forgive me, i beg.

here are the pics:

his tree or so he claimed.

thats him. i love this! OOoOoOoOoOo la-la

mabuk cinta? shah shah

alright love u all!

love.fat(thnx for reading)

a big thank you for those who made me what i am TODAY! than for believing in me :)
(yes, a public declaration)

2005-08-12T23:53:00.000-07:00

life is like a dick, suck it.
life is like a roller coaster, ride it.
life is beautiful, love it.
life is dreadful, kill it.

perservere, i did.
believe, i swear i did.
determine, i never fail to do it.
but,
they despise me and left me disappointing.

after what happened, ive come to realise sth, parents are a hell of a source of demoralisation. thnx yeah. to add on, my aunt is one too.
hell to them, i did try and give my best! which of that dont they get it huh?
this sucks.period.

it's no use dreading over things that are so OVER. im learning how to move on. ill get 10 in the year end. ill prove to all of u. whatever.

yes, english oral is on tuesday. had practice with sham, wende and bryan. ok, they said my reading is alright. they would give me a 10. phew. whatever it is. im giving my best.

pple life suck at this point of time. believe it or not. hur hur.

anxiety overruled me.
i was anticipating for something,
but that something was disappointing.
it sent me tearing.
it left me heart-broken.
years of hardwork,(not years actually.months)
i was given an effortless result.
i was crest-fallen.
but,
someone told me,
dont ever let disappointment dominates u.
i was touched by his words.
we are just barely friends,
but,
his undaunting words close up the bond that we have missed.
yes, thank you kenny!
someone made me feel hopeless.
unworthy of living.
i swear im gonna show u im not what u think i am.
IN FACT IM FAR FROM THAT U heartless creep!

seriously, im feeling better! dont give up just yet! thnx to my friends who were there in times of major sorrows. :) thnx!

im just imitating typical cheenafied girls pose!

wende is just plain jealous of the way i look in pictures! wende the un-photogenic guy!

BRYAN WENT INTO MY ROOM. gosh. hahax we look adorable. at least i am! haha

2005-08-11T06:46:00.000-07:00

a knot was formed in the very pit of my stomach when someone came running to me telling me,
"fat! tmr MT 'O' level result will be out!".
ok, seriously i do not know to feel happy or scared! but, i was accompanied with fear that i wont do well! argh! just imagining what it will be like tmr kills me! yes, it does! i was so scared during PE, during recess, ok practically the whole day! and even NOW!
IM GOING TO CRY!
I NEED A SHOULDER TO CRY ON!
I NEED A HUG!
I NEED SOLACE!
anyone?
i hope that my prayers will be answered. i hope so. insyallah.
oh allah, pls i do not want to disappoint my parents. had been a source of disappointment since god knows when! pls Allah. i put my hands together. i kneel down before you. i pray for my well-being and others. oh allah, yes, i beg.

argh! it is the most(officially) scariest thing that has ever happened in my life!

i wish u pple(sec 4Es and 5Ns) all the best yeah. may god be with u.

love,
fat

2005-08-03T06:18:00.000-07:00

4 BITCHES and an odd ball.
(me,van,sham and qing plus siew ming) haha

we had a marvellous time at english ssp. yes, siew ming sat with us! she actually did not know who the fugging hell is sham?! CAN I LAUGH?! oh wells, i did! a great one indeed! i doubt she even know who tha fugging hell i am! truth does hurt pple! haha! i learnt that van is a very truthful person. NEITHER A PERSON BEHIND A MASK NOR A MASQUERADE! *claps for van* haha!

kai qing had major diarheoa today. as a kind soul, i went to and fro from the class to the toilet to get tissue packs for her. FOR GODS SAKE, I HAVE TO BEAR THE SMELLY SCENT COMING FROM THE CUBICLE SHE WAS IN! haha im glad that 4e4 students are very considerate to have donated tissue packs for qingz! i have to beg to get! LOVE ME KAIQING!

yes, we had late lunch at the coffeeshop next to out sch. kok wei was practically trying to impress me! alright heres a situation that cracked me!
fat: kok wei, i want to go the shop get something.
so, we walked.
fat: eh, its alright la. i dun need it.
kok wei looked at me.
kok wei: no need use ah?
i was huh? what?
AND I LAUGHED SO LOUD UPON UNDERSTANDING WHAT THE HELL HE WAS TALKING ABOUT!
KOK WEI SHIT U! stop it with my grandfather's stead ok! haha.

yes, i have a almost perfect time! thnx to my friends! love yall!
going to do chem hw. cya!

urs truly,
fat
missing u!

2005-07-28T07:24:00.000-07:00

ANY KIND SOULS TO LEND ME HARRY POTTER BOOK 6?

ATHIRAH IF URE READING THIS, RESERVE THE BOOK FOR ME!! i BEG!!! thnx!!
LOVE U loads of candy treats! :)

i did math today! i was immersed with numbers, so cool i tell u! yeah still mugging!

everyday mug. its a mundane. a boring one. BUT, i need to mug for the future. ok, im pondering bout the future. yes, thats the new ME! i mean ive always been planning ahead. CHEERS!

MATH IS FUN. CHEM IS COOL. PHYSICS IS HOT. ENG IS FUNNY. HUMANITIES IS HELL RAWKING. AND IM LOVING EACH AND ALL. haha

i asked my dad if he could give me 75 bucks to buy a bag. I THINK HE IS GIVING. haha weee! love U DAD!

ok. back to mugging!

A MATH IS IN PROCESS. thnx. no distraction.

chario angels!

urs truly,
fat(an optimistic)

2005-07-26T01:18:00.000-07:00

GOD, PLS LOVE ME. for reading this book.

im reading this book entiltled the da vinci code. i SWEAR once u read, there is nowhere u gonna put an inch away simply because its THRILLING AND FASCINATING. 'i must know what happens next urgh!' yes, i was awake at wee hours just to get going with the decoding of mystery! man, the mystery is so cryptic durh, what can i say IT IS A MYSTERY.

BUT, i advise strong christian believer NOT to read this book. it contains ambigious contents about christianity; jesus was married to Mary magdalene, conceived a child named sarah. yes, and many more.

ive got to admit i do learn alot in this book: amon is the god of fertility and isis is the goddess of fertility and U GOT MONA LISA. mona lisa is a potray of da vinci's female version. he imagined and drew. on the left(im not to quite sure), mona lisa is seen as a female and on the right, mona lisa i seen as a male. da vinci simply believes in sacred feminine. FEMALES TOO ARE EQUALLY POWERFUL! the pentacle has 5 pointed ends. it symbolises the femininity; menopause, birth, menstruation, beauty and (forgive me for this, ive forgetton the last one. RAH). yes, WOMEN DO HOLD POWERS, says tha book.

sex rituals, hieros gamos, is a spiritual act. the man was spiritually incomplete until he had a carnal knowledge of sacred feminine. by communing with woman, man could achieve climatic instant when his mind went totally blank and he could see god. SO, love sex! haha

opus dei, using celica belt that cuts through their flesh. BLEEDS. they felt GOD! from my point of view, thats wrong. NO OFFENCE yeah. thats all!

a highly recommended book! do read and get a feel of deciphering codes of ancient words of wisdom! hahax!

urs truly,
fat(future cryptologist)

2005-07-22T03:27:00.000-07:00

I AM FEELING SO ENCOURAGED NOW :)

let me tell you about my study life. it is kinda boring but hey i would like to share some things that happened to me through my journey, be it pleasant or cruel.

i was a studious girl back in sec 1, not trying to say that im not now but a lil less of it. i did my homework all the time to the extent that it would kill me if i forget to do A PIECE of maths worksheet. yes, that was how i was. i did pretty well in test and major exams. im proud to say that i was positioned second in class and forth in level.

*head up high. haha

in sec 2, i start to loiter around after school thinking that THERE IS MORE TO LIFE THAN JUST GETTING STRINGS OF DISTINCTIONS! despite the thought, i still do my revision, homework and even study for every class test, class test was like a major exam for me back then. IF I FAIL OR DID BADLY, i would break down. sec 2 was the year of excitement and all. i started to be more talkative and playful, and i even had a conflict with a teacher. not so bad huh? it was the common test in term 3 that drove me to work even harder. i barely got a 74% for my overall and i deduced that i didnt give my best and that resulted in the result. so i pushed myself even harder. i worked so hard to attain the class that i wanted and guess what my efforts attest to my results. i was gay and contented. i was positioned 3rd in class and 8th in level. my parents were indeed proud of their daughter.

*my dad ruffled my hair. haha i love it when he does that.

alright, coming to the year of great depression (SEC 3). i suffered a lot of ups and downs. in this year, i started to think philosophically; success is a motherstep towards failure, face failure positively, a failure will bound to reap success in the end bla bla bla. i was partially influenced by the great shabalahahah Nantha, the known philosopher in class. i find a math so difficult, sometimes i pass, sometimes i fail and you should know how much i loathe failing. but, one day i thought to myself, seriously i was on verge of giving up, if my friends can do it, there is NEVER a reason for me not to do it. GOD HAS MADE NOTHING IMPPOSIBLE FOR US! so i tried and i got a pass though it was not satisfying but hey im contented as i know i can do better next time around. i did pretty well for my end of year. i was positioned 13th in class and 14th in level with excellent conduct that i never know why! hahah

O LEVEL IS DRIVING ME CRAZY! this year is a year of depression. i have to admit i cried a lot, but i have great companions that are willing to guide me. i faced failure more than the past years till it came to an extent that i thought i was getting dumber! but hey, i wasnt at all demoralised and i told myself that THERE IS ALWAYS A NEXT TIME! when i fail, i know where my weaknesses are so i can work on it. this however, has taught me not to be complacent with what ive attained. PRAISE THE LORD ALMIGHTY! i help my friends, they help me in return. i learnt not to be stingy but share ur knowledge in that way you can excel and learn better! sham and i even came out with a contract to boost ourselves to strive better! how lame but IT WILL HELP! nothing is too late! if you happen to fail now, you are at profit, simply because you wouldnt want to repeat the same mistake in o level :) see my point! so its alright to fail now as success is calling for you in the year end! gees i do sound like some philosopher dont i? hahax.

i was awed by mdm ma's words: "YOU HAVE STUDIED FOR 4 YEARS SIT FOR A PAPER WHICH LASTED ONLY FOR AN HOUR AND A HALF(GEO PAPER LA) AND YOU WOULDNT WANT TO JUST FLOP AND DO BADLY IN THAT PERIOD OF TIME AND WASTED THE DAMM 4 YEARS OF HELL, DONT YOU?"(a lil bit exaggerated la) but yeah get the picture ppl! so yes, do ur revision!!! GO GO GO!

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE IN THIS WORLD!

when failure damned you,
you felt weak,
you thought it was an end,
you let it dominate you,
you are weakened.
but,
failure is the element that brings success;
you failed once,
you comtemplate,
and you learnt not wanting to repeat the blunder.
then,
you finally realised that,
at the end of every tunnel,
there bound to be a light.
there, success awaits you!

i hope you people are not demoralised and work harder to strive better! SKYs come on you can do it!!! lets do our best and get out of that DARN SCHOOL! hahax

yours truly,
fat(the world's favourite DJ)

2005-07-20T02:59:00.000-07:00

can the teachers just take things slowly? i could feel the pressure within me. attaining results which do not at all attest to my efforts. but that doesnt stop me from working harder! i need time to mull things up and get revision going! i have wende to guide me in a math(i truly suck at it). i have 3 slots of a math lesson after school every week ok shuck but ive gotta appreciate Mr Teoh's effort in printing out' fill in the blanks' worksheet for us. I HAVE TO THANK U FOR THAT! now no more enjoyment. im going to chuck that aside and full blast for revision! im practising math(both a and e) everyday i suppose(not quite la). im getting a hang on to book now to improve my english. Nan told me to read for at least 1/2hr before i turn in the night. yeah it helps and I REALLY MISS GETTING SO INTO THE BOOK! wooo. i have just completed 'The rescue' by Nicholas sparks! a compelling book,i swear! Im heading off to 'the da vincci code' by dan brown soon!

I WANT TO DO MY PARENTS AND MYSELF PROUD!
ive disappointed them enough and now it is time for me to pay back their efforts in making me what i am today :) i promise! u have my words mum and dad!

yeah! here is a lil sth for all of u who think that u have failed in life. but wait, no body is born to fail! u fail because u know that ure gonna succeed in life in the near end! so DONT QUIT PEEPS :)

when things go wrong as they sometimes will, when the road you're trudging seema all uphill, when the funds are low and the debts are high, and you want to smile but you have to sigh, when care is pressing you down a bit, REST if you need, but DONT YOU QUIT!

success is a failure turned inside out, the silver tint of the clouds of doubt. and you never can tell how close you are, it may be near when it seems afar, so stick to the fight when you're the hardest hit. IT'S WHEN THINGS GO WRONG THAT YOU MUSTN'T QUIT!

feeling better? i bet so! i dread over my a math. i did study hard enough i suppose but i still fail. world was not fair to me that moment. i broke down and felt so frail. i thought ive failed. but with great companion in life that god has blessed me with, i revived and start to think bout it again. i know that i did my best but i failed. however, this isnt a source of demoralisation but a source of great success in the near future. a person fails once and learnt, later success is in their hands. so no matter what im gonna try my best for the best is yet to be simply because failing is the mother step towards success. AND NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!

yours truly,
fat( for the best is yet to be)

2005-07-14T21:51:00.000-07:00

THERE IS A MALAY LISTENING COMPREHENSION TODAY!
-pple if there is a need to dig YOUR ears, DO SO-
it is for your own good!

I had my breakfast with bryan at Macdonalds. what can i say i love HOTCAKES WITH SAUSAGE MEAL! just pour the syrup on the hotcakes and EAT IT! is that cool or just cool!
we talked bout life, our past life, our future life, friends and family. OK it was cool! bryan is just full of 'it'.

then, we walked around heartland and he is always up to some stupid stuff like jumping when he is walking at the same time! i find it hilarious la! we bought qingz, sham and jia hui birthday presents! IM SO BROKE NOW! we bought qingz a book on christianity(i hope she ll love it) and a footprints in the sand frame stand with words written on it! it is meaningful,i mean SO! we bought sham a spongebob and squird worm(is that how u spell it?) soft toy. im so sad that there was no patrick.sham loves patrick! and we bought Jia Hui a best friends picture frame from happy house then, Bryan and I rushed to the neoprint shop and took shots so that we can put our pictures on the frame! ok we look STOOPID! hahax! and we rushed home!!!

alright went to watch Fantastic Four yesterday! I LOVE THE SHOW! im so in love with CHRIST EVANS! argh he just took my breathe away! hes so hot! SUPER NOVA! thats so cool!
and Jessica Alba is hell rawking! OMG she just reminds me of MYSELF! hahax

alright. till here wanna get some rest before the paper!

loving yall

urs truly,
fat

2005-07-13T20:25:00.000-07:00

it was after a math paper 1. fat has gone wild due to major take in of formulae! she cant take it anymore. self-obssession took her to the world of 'I LOVE MYSELF THAN I LOVE U'. she just GRABBED nan's phone and took a snap :)

Fat: Nan, tell me who is hotter? DUN LIVE IN THE WORLD OF DENIAL! its bad for health!

Nan: ure asking me?
Fat: durh! den who? nan why are u look over there?
(nan going gaga over some bootylicious babe NOT)
Nan: woah! fat that babe hot dude!
Fat: eh WAIT! I THINK IM A THOUSAND TIMES BETTER OK. u look properly!
the babe was walking towards the bus stop! nan could finally capture her close up!
NAN WAS PUKING. SO NOW ITS STATED WITH A STORY THAT FATHIAH IS THE HOTTEST CHICK!!

THERE U GO!!! THE HOTTEST BABE IN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE. RAWK ON FAT!

ok! pre-prelims are OVER. YOOOOOOO!!! im gonna watch FANTASTIC FOUR. eh dun insult FANTASTIC FOUR BY CALLING IT F4 for a SHORT(errks)!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY QINGZ! I HOPE ULL HAVE A MEMORABLE TIME TODAY(i mean everything is memorable with me rights.I KNOW!!
ps: i hope u like the recording! hahax love ya

i love all of u too! but i love myself more!

2005-07-13T00:56:00.000-07:00

LOOK at her! gorging all she can! Fat: Khai u gotta slow it down babe, if not ull be fat!

pardon me. our mommy didnt get us this kinda gun when we were younger. YES DEPRIVED CHILDHOOD!

Fam's bbq(paternal side). ok we had loads of fun even though i need to mug for my papers! hahax.

if i were to sit with them, does that make me one of them? hahax seriously i look FAT! F-A-T!

he WAS the king. i WAS the slave. screw my dad he forced me to get this shot! ARGH! hahax

thats my nephew! he is just TOO CUTE to be true! yes yes im already an aunty but a sexy cool one!

thats my niece. sofiah! ok shes ADORABLE. argh arent the cheeks scrumptious!

me and him AGAIN! we look hot! and that baby will turn out to be HOT when he grows up because he has a hot aunty! I KNOW. period!

thats all for now bye!

2005-07-12T23:28:00.000-07:00

MAPLE IS THE IN 'THING' NOW

ok. i was walking home with two of my friends, nan and yong.
they were talking bout this game practically all the time i spotted them together.
they EVEN calculate how much time is wasted when we actually walked at our pace just now!
-5 mins can increase the % of the 'thing's' strength by 4%!-
so they need 2 hrs(after calculating) to level the 'thing' up to the next level!
CAN U IMAGINE 2HRS TO LEVEL UP BY ONE LEVEL.
oh wells, my dearies find joy in doing it!
instead of studying for a math... they mapled! ok cool pple!
GAMERS ARE CRAZY I TELL U!
so poor nan had to sacrifice his time to wait for the bus with me!(yes yes im grateful).
they were talking bout it and i got quite fascinated la.

GUESS WHAT?!!!!!!!!

even the girls in my class play maple; sok kiang, gina, qin lei and i forget the last one.
so im like WOW! girls do play?
and that actually made me wanna download the game too but,
i just cant find the point sitting in front of the game and kill monsters!
some monsters are cute, some are UGLY(says nan).
so yeah ill see bout that!

but the coolest thing is yet to be unfold!

U CAN SELL UR ACCOUNT UP TOO FEW HUNDRED SING DOLLARS!
ok that sent sparkles in my brain!
nan said once he got that 'sth' he can sell it up to S$450 wow!
and i asked: is there such despos in the world?!
nan: yes of course!
(fat was startled for a moment).

poor yong chiang. heres what happen:
last week his account was being hacked! so that goes his maple MONEY!
he could sell it to bout S$300 but it was hacked! ok that suck!

so yeah GAMERS ARE NUTS(but i admire their commitment they put to the game.hahax)
all the best yeah!!
computer crash DUN COMPLAIN, i tell u!

tmr last paper. yes yes persevere! i just hope i do well in all! but its alright i did my best and let god do the rest!

ok heres another thing:
HABIT
u kick the H, u still got ABIT.
u kick the A, u still got BIT.
u kick the B, u stil GOT IT!

so its difficult to kick away bad habits! but it is never difficult to TRY!

ok loving yall!

urs truly,
fat(dedicated this post for the gamers)

2005-07-09T22:35:00.000-07:00

thinking bout life.(wait dun i just look hot or what!)

me and jacq. argh shes one cute anime! AND i love her :)

scrumptious it is! yeah!!! youth day cake for 4e4. HAIL

if u cant stand my face, just read the words on it yeah! but if u dun look at me URE AT LOST!
hahax!

IDIOTS_9 olus two intruders hahax!

yes im done love yall

2005-07-09T21:29:00.000-07:00

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know it's gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was never ending
Wouldn't it be nice
Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray
It might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But let's talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

Good night baby
Sleep tight baby

Good night baby
Sleep tight baby

how i wish life could be that lovely. ARGH! RAMPANT IN MY OWN WORLD OF DEVASTATION!(ok that suck).
ive gotta to thank god for blessing me with a person that i am HAPPY to be with. ill kill myself if its ever gonna put to an end. yeah WE DO NOT HOPE.(hope for the hopeless) hahax!

trust me life is like a roller coaster ride. try reading this book: curious incident of midnight dog.(aiya, i cant remember the title). anyway, the book is damn hilarious. the author likes prime number so he labelled all the chapters in PRIME NUMBER(so cute aint it). the book is bloody vulgar(very suitable for pple who are tempting to learn how to hurl vulgarities in high class manner). heres one that humoured me(something gotta do with metaphors):

we have a real pig of a day--- i think it shld be called a lie because a pig is not like a day.( seriously, i do not know to find dumb or great) hahax but i laughed my ass outta my ass(a quote from Jia Hui). theres more in the book! it is like testing the intelligence of human beings that had much bring glory and satisfaction in the world. try reading it!

yeah tmr im still having papers:

11 july: chemistry paper 1(1 hr only)
12 july: physics paper 1
13 july: a maths paper 1(2 hrs. im trying hard to imagine how ill end up to be)
14 july: a maths paper 2(HAIL its the last paper and falls on qingz bdae) hear no evil see no evil!! hahax!
after papers we plan to chiong(right spelling?) to the cinema! INITIAL D and FANTASTIC FOUR!

SPECIAL DEDICATION TO JIA HUI(my bitch):
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY!!!! may u lead a life u have wished since god knows when.
LOVE YA BABE!

alright. see ya peeps! fat is apreciating life even theres ups and downs! IF I CAN DO IT! dun bother asking if u can! hahax! love yall

2005-07-08T21:59:00.000-07:00

even though some things troubled me,
i tried my best to hide.
im born weak; physically and emotionally.
i never practise perfection; no one is perfect.
nevertheless, i live my life to the fullest.

i have a friend, a great friend i have since sec 1.
he has taught me A LOT bout life!
he said there is more to life than just mugging and getting strings of distinctions.
HE NEVER FAILS TO LIVE ME UP!
hes a person that i would turn to whenever im down.
after much talkings, he ll make me realise that I HAVE TO A LEAD A LIFE OF MY OWN!
(thnx yeah. ure one person that i never WILL FORGET).
hes none other than NAN the man!

words aint enough to express my gratitudes towards u!
but trust me deep down,
i APPRECIATE ur presence in my life!
BEST FRIENDS NEVER DIES!
love ya!!!!

PS: hes not the only asshole that has made me realise some things. theres more! but nantha's self confidence and believes inspired me! hahax

I HOPE URE READING THIS!

love yall

2005-07-06T23:39:00.000-07:00

hey. hell what am i doing here?
SKYs are so busy mugging...
what am i here? hahax
seriously I DUN CARE! i need a break from studying!

this is what i want NOW:
-to be able to sit quietly(no particular movements unless toilet breaks) and STUDY!
( i wonder how my friends could do that. it just amazed me. because i SIMPLY CANT)

cant the school just provide an AIR CONDITONED HALL!(its pretty warm in there)
imagine sitting for O level papers in the hall(hell. i DO have papers in the afternoon)

AND E MATHS PAPER II BLOWS(or is it just me?) i did my revision ok!(anyway did my best. only 1 out of 10 said that the paper was rate ok.THATS MY JOEL WHO SAID THAT) hahax!

just hoping for miracles to happen in my life. anticipating for the arrival of my angel. when will u make it here?

anyway, was doing quizes bout what kind of person i am. and bla bla. heres the results:

You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by Quizilla

alright which gorgeous goddess am i?
WAIT!!! before i tell u my results, PROMISE me ull love me NO MATTER WHAT(hahax who knows u might get jealous)! hahax

The Goddess of Roses and Love. You are a hopeless
romantic. Always optimistic and loving, you
have many friends and you are exceptionally
trustworthy. You are a innocent beauty.

Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
brought to you by

try it its cool! alright thats all for now. i need to get a nap. and chiong(is it the right spelling i dunno. trust me my hanyu pin yin sucks la)! ill be mugging for PHYSICS today!(GOD FORBID. im doing it again.hahax)

2005-07-01T01:07:00.000-07:00

i passed the 5 mins of hell and with god's power; ive gone to the heaven!(thnx man

MT 'O' Level went pretty well(thnx to my tongue)
i hope my loud voice betrayed my anxiety( was real shaking, not obvious la but i was.thnx to my hand gestures it wasnt that obvious) phew.
yeah my reading was alright(i hope). XXkeeping my fingers crossedXX
the conversation topic:
1st: if u have a pen pal, where would u bring him/her when they visit spore. bascially talking bout places of interest in spore. so SENTOSA sounds alright. and Singapore Musuem(that was the thing that came screaming in my mind."TALK ABOUT ME") hahax. i talked bout the rich history of singapore. yeah SENTOSA i talked bout the beautiful scenery. wind bla bla bla(typical place for a talk right. but well i did my best).
2nd: how important is the role played by the school in moulding the students and the characteristics of being a disciplined student. so i crapped. yeah i think i talked sense for the first time(true. its pretty hard to see me talking bout this kinda stuff).
I HOPE EVERYONE DOES WELL!!!!!!(distinction anyone?)

oww im touched by mdm zurina's words!
she moved me to tear man!
BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!(i am upon hearing those words)!
she sang this one beautiful song( she touched many ppl i bet)
the song was so meaningful(sth bout u have to hold on. but NEVER stop dreaming! U CAN MAKE UR DREAMS ALIVE!) yeah.
HAIL MR ZUL HE SANG FOR US!!!! OWWWWWWWWW!!!!!
and teachers pasted words of motivation and gratitudes on the wall of fame!
i was touched by miss mel's words!
I LOVE U SO MUCH( i hugged her ok! shes my twin sis. i tell u we look alike. is that suppose to be a compliment? hahax u decide).
we took pictures! 4e4 rawks big time! we love each other!
we cut cake.ate pizzas together.it was hell fun of a time(its the best YOUTH DAY i ever had)!
POTATO SALAD TASTE GOOOOOOOOOD!!!

i sang to wende the song 'incomplete'.
obviously hes NOT AT ALL touched! hahax
and i was singing duet with Jun wei!(hes one bloody drama KING, i tell u).

and i miss 2e1 so much!
i almost teared upon reading mdm zurina's msg for 2e1(2003)
yes its been ages since she last seen as a class.
i miss that too.
those years are the time i have a hell of a time with of them(each and everyone)
i miss yoo guys so much!
FRIENDS FOR LIFE YEAh
2002 and 2003 are the years that i never wanna let go off!
childish.devlish.(thats us) hahax

pple do read 'the rescue' by Nicholas sparks! its highly recommendable!
a story that will touch every soul and turn them to be better :) (i hope)!

love yall!

urs truly,
fat

2005-06-30T05:21:00.000-07:00

im taking my MT o level oral TOMORROW!!
ive been practicising my reading since 7 in the evening.
getting better i suppose but screw my TONGUE la!(i think im born with a short tongue)
RAH!!!
ive the tendency to go on reading like a a bullet train(i mean imagine that) hahax.
NO KID LA!! but ive practicised to pace myself(just hope my tongue WONT betray me).
so MAY THE FORCE BE WITH FAT! yeah need all the luck that u pple can give!(thnx)

had mass PE today. it was a total screwed up!
Mr toh took 10 mins to get us settled.
another 10 mins to get us to do the work outs.
another 10 mins for lecturing(our sch need serious disciplinary programme)
NO ONE was listening to him!
yes four finger pointing back at me. grr.
i was fooling at the back but hey i DID my workouts right qing?
we did jumping jack more than we re suppose to do.
1st: i lost count thnx to the unbearing noise made my SKYs
2nd: i love to jump so was enjoying, cant be bothered by the no. of times i did.
3rd: i simply need to get my ass work out mans!(im fat.my mum said).
it was UNORGANISED. UNPLANNED.A TOTAL BULLSHIT! RAH

PE lesson was fun. we played badminton!
yes. im getting good? am i Nan? hahax
hard time playing with me huh? hahax
yeah yeah at least i can see where the shuttle cock is ok!

had 4 straight periods of math! OH GOODNESS(but it did pay off la) yeah!
i think ive understood what the hell shes trying to say after all this while! yippie!
thnx to my wende!!! took 20 mins to explain a 2 mark qn? hahax(im stupid ok!)
but ill prove u wrong la! hahax!
yes u smell today! i could even sense where u were even ure not at sight ok!
thats how yuckie u were!!

after sch headed off to qingz place! did our grp study(actually me and bryan only la)
the rest helped out with the potato salad!( i helped in STRIPPING the crab meat. is it the right word i use?) hahax took me mins to do it!
it could have been boring without KAI TING's PRESENCE la(but she was there to entertain me) shes so hell funny!(i love ur malay accent man.its like a chinese trying REAL hard to speak malay.hahax)
she asked me to teach her how to wear tudung(but she gave me a shawl instead.u tell me how) hahax and she said:
I DUNNO HOW WEAR TUDUNG!(i was laughing la).
u know malay muslim need all available HALAL food right. so yeah because of me(FATHIAH being the only malay girl in class) my friends have to sacrifice all NON HALAL FOOD(thnx ah. im sending u pple my word of thnx later) hahax!
so ill be like, "eh! make sure the cake doesnt contain RUM.ok"
"eh, crab meat, hot dog, oil please be halal"
"joel! bring SPARKLING JUICE instead of wine ok"
hahax leceh?(troublesome)
yes yes! malay privilege mans!
POWER! hahax
so we gonna have a feast during CME lesson(at least im gonna have loads of fun before my ORAL) thank god la!

later in the evening, we guys sat at the living room and chat. we brought up a topic and well we get going from there. my friends kinda think that malay are so much linked to delinquency, i totally agree with them la. look at them(how they dress. they act) these are so much enough to give my first impression bout them. i dun like to judge them by my first impression but first impressions arent always wrong right? they re even ostracize by their own community. sometimes i wonder what would it be like to do such stuff(its pretty intriguing ya know). how is it like to be bad. is it cool? what make them want to try these out? but i really hope theyll be unblind by all the lies that theyve been living with(yes so much evil in the world. eliminate those. bring the angels BACK).

one more thing: whats UR definition of sexy?
for me, being sexy is not only wearing tight-fitting clothes. showing off ur body parts.
sexy isnt just being ATTRACTIVE! its bout how U BRING URSELF!
CONFIDENCE it is! ull feel sexy when ure confident! yes attractive is always the FIRST word that came screamin in everyones mind when ask bout sexy! but URE WRONG! theres more to being sexy than just LOOKS.FASHIONS(bla bla)! yupp think bout that pple!

DEFINITION OF LOVE?
-great sensation and pleasure(woohoos)

urs truly,
fat(loving yall)

all the best peeps!